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3 years ago
Hoo boy, my mental health has been awful lately. I lost/misplaced something important at work yesterday and it made my brain glitch. I couldn't stop thinking about it and the consequences and repercussions of it. But the thought of my brain glitching out also made me think about Meow Wolf and how badly I want to go there again.
These thoughts just would not leave my head no matter how hard I tried to throw myself into my work, even though I had barely any time for a break today. It's like my new ADHD medication, same as my first one, makes me focus on the EXACT OPPOSITE of what I need to be focusing on.
I'm worried (again) that I'm losing control of my life and I don't know how to get it back. I wish I could just take like a year off to focus on improving my mental health, but I have bills and such to pay, so I have to keep working.
I managed to fall and stay asleep easily last night, even though I didn't sleep as long as I'd hoped.
These thoughts just would not leave my head no matter how hard I tried to throw myself into my work, even though I had barely any time for a break today. It's like my new ADHD medication, same as my first one, makes me focus on the EXACT OPPOSITE of what I need to be focusing on.
I'm worried (again) that I'm losing control of my life and I don't know how to get it back. I wish I could just take like a year off to focus on improving my mental health, but I have bills and such to pay, so I have to keep working.
I managed to fall and stay asleep easily last night, even though I didn't sleep as long as I'd hoped.
In any way, best wishes on finding improvements and not feeling stressed anymore soon.
It's also extremely frustrating, of course, to have our minds betray us, and to be unable to find a medication that actually does what it's supposed to do without "fine print" or a monkey's-paw-esque dark side. I'm so sorry, Ian.