I just can't keep pretending that everthing is fine, I'm ashamed of my words in this journal but I need help, my mom needs help, we need help.

A year ago, around this time I had an interview with a cooperative near me, they were and still are doing courses for becoming a PLC programmer, their course costs 6000 Euros.
We got tricked into doing this course on false promises of being able to get a position right away as a programmer, with a more than decent salary and future, the industry was in high demand and so on, I got tricked into believing I could build a future for myself but all I got now is 6000 Euros out of our pockets that we are still paying, we are left with 3-4 installments of 550 Euros each.

Now, the problem is: I got no job and I'm always looking for one but until then I can't provide an income for me and my mother; My mother is 85% legally disabled and gets only 303 Euros per month.
We are struggling with food now that this mad war is happening, prices went through the roof and I can't even go 2 days of fuel with 30 Euros.

Long story short is that me and my mom together got an income of only 303 Euros, my father helps us every month but it's already not enough. If I will invest into a job our expenses will get higher due to the high price of fuel.

I'm here to ask, beg, if someone could help not myself alone, but my mother as well. I can offer my characters up to any of your desires, no bounds. I will be forever grateful to you that are still reading and to those that decide to land a hand...

Thank you kindly for reading this journal and getting to the end, thank you for listening, thank you for your time.