I've been watching you since last year because well... I don't remember the reason but now I'm glad I am watching you.
What I'll say will be harsh to hear but is what I found out to be true (based on my life experiences only):
Having no friends to hang out may sadden your day, but hating yourself for it isn't a healthy line of thought. I really hated myself in my teens (for more than 3 years straight) and it did nothing good for me. I used to blame myself very harshly for pretty much anything: mistakes, failures, feeling lazy, frustrations, getting mad at random with people I liked, the list goes on. The only thing it did for me was making things worse. I don't want the same to happen to you.
Now? I'm still in rehabilitation due mental health problems that I neglected when younger.
If I could go back in the past, one piece of advice I would give myself is "Don't feel embarrassed about needing some kind of help, you don't have to cross your entire dark path alone. There are people who care about you and want you to succeed in life"... this is getting long and boring isn't it?

I was just sharing some thoughts of mine, wish ya the best buddy! and also I'm intrigued that you're actually younger than me

Thank you

I feel you here, been 20 years or more without any friends to hang around with, and I hate myself for not trying.
I'm glad you had a good time though ^^

Thanks, I appreciate it uvu

Oh that feeling is one of the worst :( *hug*

*hugs back*

I'm so sorry to hear that :c Not sure if you remember me though, but I do live nearby I think. If you want, we can always just hang out and all considering we already have similar interests. Something to do and share whatever we have in common

You do uvu

Why do I forget? :(

Oww, man. I know how you feel, but don't be hopeless! I'm sure you want to be surrounded by real people, physically speaking. I know many of us including me may not fulfill that part, but its good to get to know furries that possibly live near your area.
As your other friend said, its not healthy to put so much hate on yourself. And since your birthday is near, I'm very excited to surprise you and make you smile, hehehe!