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3 years ago
After researching my perceived condition from the last psych appointment, I pretty much came to the conclusion that I didn't have that (experiential avoidance).
It's the one thing that everyone thinks they have on the outset because everyone avoids or procrastinates about something. But unless it's harmful or defineable it's not necessarily treatable. It's almost defined like a non-categorized phobia. Normal avoidance is either rational or more likely a symptom of a personality mode such as introversion or a disorder such as depression. The psychologist did agree with my assessment of it and really didn't have much to add.
To come to that conclusion, I did some research online about the malady itself and compared it to me. I avoid some uncomfortable situations, I'm extremely rational and don't irrationally or obsessively avoid anything. In fact I'm almost rational to a fault. Besides avoiding exercise and self care, I pretty much just do what I have to do to to be a continuing semi successful life unit despite intermittent suffering. Most of my symptoms point to simple depression.
My therapist and I agreed that I would try some meditation and use a model for decision making to help guide it. The guide is called the Choice Point by Dr. Russ Harris. I'm not going to go into detail on it but basically it's a very simple guide for making decisions.
Which sounded great at first. Sit and meditate and/or ponder with a goal helping shape life decisions. Or not, as meditation generally isn't supposed to be high pressure. But part of the challenge my values should shape those decisions.
Thus begins the oftentimes dark task of evaluating values... To evaluate and execute decisions.
Like... This truck engine project that seems to only be more and more stalled out. I had rigged up a parts washer pump to clean parts out of an old fuel pump. The fuel pump failed. Tried to find a different pump, and the pumps I had were all broken except one, which I needed for brewery/winery operations. Not going to run dirty kerosene through that and wine later...
So getting the pump going I decided to work in my home brewery for a few hours which I hadn't done for years instead of working on the engines. Bottled 5 gallons and prepared 16 gallons of wine and beer for bottling.
Using the work on it for 5 minutes and stop if you don't like it and an hour if you do...
It's the one thing that everyone thinks they have on the outset because everyone avoids or procrastinates about something. But unless it's harmful or defineable it's not necessarily treatable. It's almost defined like a non-categorized phobia. Normal avoidance is either rational or more likely a symptom of a personality mode such as introversion or a disorder such as depression. The psychologist did agree with my assessment of it and really didn't have much to add.
To come to that conclusion, I did some research online about the malady itself and compared it to me. I avoid some uncomfortable situations, I'm extremely rational and don't irrationally or obsessively avoid anything. In fact I'm almost rational to a fault. Besides avoiding exercise and self care, I pretty much just do what I have to do to to be a continuing semi successful life unit despite intermittent suffering. Most of my symptoms point to simple depression.
My therapist and I agreed that I would try some meditation and use a model for decision making to help guide it. The guide is called the Choice Point by Dr. Russ Harris. I'm not going to go into detail on it but basically it's a very simple guide for making decisions.
Which sounded great at first. Sit and meditate and/or ponder with a goal helping shape life decisions. Or not, as meditation generally isn't supposed to be high pressure. But part of the challenge my values should shape those decisions.
Thus begins the oftentimes dark task of evaluating values... To evaluate and execute decisions.
Like... This truck engine project that seems to only be more and more stalled out. I had rigged up a parts washer pump to clean parts out of an old fuel pump. The fuel pump failed. Tried to find a different pump, and the pumps I had were all broken except one, which I needed for brewery/winery operations. Not going to run dirty kerosene through that and wine later...
So getting the pump going I decided to work in my home brewery for a few hours which I hadn't done for years instead of working on the engines. Bottled 5 gallons and prepared 16 gallons of wine and beer for bottling.
Using the work on it for 5 minutes and stop if you don't like it and an hour if you do...
V.