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Good Shit (Procedure, Progress), Bullshit (info), Other S...
3 years ago
It's been a bit since I last updated y'all, sorry about that. >m< Every week has brought a new trial-by-fire so far, which has to be wrangled with, only for another one to pop up after that! Yeesh! But I'm here for a little while now.
(Also I will try to respond to some messages before I leave in a few hours, and then later in the week.)
Good Shit
Well, first of all: after bowel things got worse, I called the gastroenterology in the middle of last week, and I was able to get an appointment THAT DAY--which was very sudden surprise, because as I've probably said, these kind of appointments usually take a LONG time! And I was even MORE surprised when, at the appointment's conclusion, they were able to schedule a procedure for me on MONDAY (today)! There "happened" to be a cancellation--fuck yeah!
So I have a colonoscopy (or as I have been dubbing it, my "butt tube test") in ~2hrs. It should hopefully lead to more conclusive answers on why I have been pooping razors at least monthly for the last decade lol, and why that escalated over the past few months. At least I was taken seriously after so long; that's a big relief & comfort. They did spot some things at the gastroentero, but obviously here, they will be able to look deeper in. Good thing they're knocking me out before the butt tube goes in--otherwise, I'm sure my view on anal vore would change forever lol. X,) To be clear, I'm just jossin' around with that one.
I'm told that the recovery should take at LEAST 24 hours, so heads up there. After that, I have a follow-up about the results in ~3 weeks. Hooray for answers!
Also, I was able to get the 2/3rds down the path given by the neurologist! :D That last 1/3rd is proving very, very tricky to obtain--at least without waiting for months, paying around/at least the cost of a car's down payment for a 2-3hr medical test, or both. -_- BUT, I do have a follow-up with the neurologist in ~2 weeks; if I haven't finished the last 1/3rd, the first 2/3rds should at least provide good answers to what should happen next so far. So, that is good. C:
Ok!
. . .
Next part then.
Bullshit
. . . Hnnnnnngh.
I am going to be brief for right now.
I had something extremely awful happen to me last week. Different from & unrelated to Brain Ablaze. But an appalling, acute event.
"How serious is it?" Very.
"Is this worse than any single event that's already happened?" I'd say so.
"So what did happen?" That's the million-dollar question, isn't it?
To be clear, I know what happened, and (unfortunately) remember it all. I am writing a piece to wrestle through what occurred. I would like to share it when that is complete. To be very clear, I don't at all feel forced to do so; I know I am not obligated. But I want to. So when it is up, more will be shown at that time.
This will have no impact on the logical aspects of my healthcare journey, at least as far as I can tell. Emotionally, yeah, it has and will. But in terms of the things to get done, I'll still be able to go to appointments, pursue answers, etc. While, in the background, picking up the broken pieces within.
That's all I want to say about that today.
Other Stuff
I do want to circle back, let y'all know that everything mentioned in this earlier update ( https://www.patreon.com/posts/65018610 )is still basically the same. But:
--I'm still working on March's game. It's changed a tad content-wise, and is clearly taking a bit more time than the end of the week of April 11th. I meant to publish a post about that, but then the Bullshit hit me like a knockout punch and I was down for the count for quite a bit. I still am tbh, but I am able to stand up here and there, for longer periods, before being slammed down again.
--I will be pausing the Patreon again in May.
--I've been doing more vore art to destress. ;3 I think y'all will appreciate that one!
I think that's all for now then! Stay safe out there, and if you read all of this, please comment below with. "Good luck with the butt tube test," and whatever else you'd like to share/say. X3 It would help.
Let's talk again soon.
(Also I will try to respond to some messages before I leave in a few hours, and then later in the week.)
Good Shit
Well, first of all: after bowel things got worse, I called the gastroenterology in the middle of last week, and I was able to get an appointment THAT DAY--which was very sudden surprise, because as I've probably said, these kind of appointments usually take a LONG time! And I was even MORE surprised when, at the appointment's conclusion, they were able to schedule a procedure for me on MONDAY (today)! There "happened" to be a cancellation--fuck yeah!
So I have a colonoscopy (or as I have been dubbing it, my "butt tube test") in ~2hrs. It should hopefully lead to more conclusive answers on why I have been pooping razors at least monthly for the last decade lol, and why that escalated over the past few months. At least I was taken seriously after so long; that's a big relief & comfort. They did spot some things at the gastroentero, but obviously here, they will be able to look deeper in. Good thing they're knocking me out before the butt tube goes in--otherwise, I'm sure my view on anal vore would change forever lol. X,) To be clear, I'm just jossin' around with that one.
I'm told that the recovery should take at LEAST 24 hours, so heads up there. After that, I have a follow-up about the results in ~3 weeks. Hooray for answers!
Also, I was able to get the 2/3rds down the path given by the neurologist! :D That last 1/3rd is proving very, very tricky to obtain--at least without waiting for months, paying around/at least the cost of a car's down payment for a 2-3hr medical test, or both. -_- BUT, I do have a follow-up with the neurologist in ~2 weeks; if I haven't finished the last 1/3rd, the first 2/3rds should at least provide good answers to what should happen next so far. So, that is good. C:
Ok!
. . .
Next part then.
Bullshit
. . . Hnnnnnngh.
I am going to be brief for right now.
I had something extremely awful happen to me last week. Different from & unrelated to Brain Ablaze. But an appalling, acute event.
"How serious is it?" Very.
"Is this worse than any single event that's already happened?" I'd say so.
"So what did happen?" That's the million-dollar question, isn't it?
To be clear, I know what happened, and (unfortunately) remember it all. I am writing a piece to wrestle through what occurred. I would like to share it when that is complete. To be very clear, I don't at all feel forced to do so; I know I am not obligated. But I want to. So when it is up, more will be shown at that time.
This will have no impact on the logical aspects of my healthcare journey, at least as far as I can tell. Emotionally, yeah, it has and will. But in terms of the things to get done, I'll still be able to go to appointments, pursue answers, etc. While, in the background, picking up the broken pieces within.
That's all I want to say about that today.
Other Stuff
I do want to circle back, let y'all know that everything mentioned in this earlier update ( https://www.patreon.com/posts/65018610 )is still basically the same. But:
--I'm still working on March's game. It's changed a tad content-wise, and is clearly taking a bit more time than the end of the week of April 11th. I meant to publish a post about that, but then the Bullshit hit me like a knockout punch and I was down for the count for quite a bit. I still am tbh, but I am able to stand up here and there, for longer periods, before being slammed down again.
--I will be pausing the Patreon again in May.
--I've been doing more vore art to destress. ;3 I think y'all will appreciate that one!
I think that's all for now then! Stay safe out there, and if you read all of this, please comment below with. "Good luck with the butt tube test," and whatever else you'd like to share/say. X3 It would help.
Let's talk again soon.
domusvocis
~domusvocis
I’m glad things are starting to look up for you, and I hope you get full control back of your mental health in the near future. *offers a hug*
