So, I updated my profile ID, which is an older piece of art, from back when I was first figuring out my 'sona. I moved away from it as an avatar after a while, and started drawing myself in a more physically accurate way, trying to embrace a more "bearish tiger dude" version of me. I've had folks tell me they like bigger guys and that I'm just fine the way I am. It felt good.

And then I've had some, recent revelations. I've never liked the rules. the gender expectations. Looking back on my teen years and then, further along, I've been masculine because it was expected, especially because of my size and stature. But I liked girl stuff. I envied girls for their clothes and hair and makeup. And other, um aspects I guess.

So is my shell cracking? Am I announcing something here? Do my random bouts of dysphoria add up to a need for a big change? No. I think just want to be both in some ways. I'm happy with the body I have, although it could be in better shape. But I care less about the rules. And I feel more me when I let myself be um, feminine, I guess. I like to look a little prettier, and feel pretty. To be someone in between... maybe beyond actually.

SO I came back to this art of my 'sona and I realized, that the sassy tiger switchbitch was always me. Sure I'm not slender IRL, but whatever. When I drew that image, it was my ideal self, and I think it still is, even if only as a fantasy. As an avatar. So yea.

TLDR: I consider myself genderfluid.

Oh uh, art. I've been on a little break. Got a big, non-furry horror commission I have been chipping away at. Haven't been trying to take on new commissions until I get this one done. Also, figuring out the above stuff has kinda taken up most of my brain power lately heh. If anyone does want some art, I'll be happy to discuss it, just might be a little while.

Anyway thanks for reading. And caring, if you do. <3