Is it servitude? It is complete adherence to any whim you may happen to have, at any given moment? Is it obedience? Is it loyalty? Is it kindness? Is it compassion? What does that word mean to you?

I don't want to throw shade at any one person, but I feel like a large proportion of my friends simply want me gone. Flushed down the memory hole. You know? I am loathe to show empathy to people who have hurt me horribly, but I am not unaware of how it feels to be 'canceled'.

So, CW? If you're reading this? Know that I'm sorry this happened to you. I truly am. I'm not being sarcastic, in spite of our falling out. I do still care, but I am broken. Maybe we could reconnect one day? I don't know. Either way, it does sadden me to see you lose such a dear friend. It's shitty, really.

Real friends don't just cut you off. Or, at the very least, they'd give you some sort of obtainable goal to meet. Some of mine won't give me the latter. It's all rather nebulous and stupid. By design, I'm sure. They want to keep me out.

At this point, I just want you to stay safe. I'm not joking, or poking fun. I seriously wish you the best.