There are moments when I spend evenings alone not managing to find someone or a hobby so as not to brood, that I sometimes fall not wanting anything, not managing to clear the fog, bringing out all my flaws as if to hurt me.
I hate it when this happens, I am often afraid that my ideas will not be appreciated or that I will be rejected, never managing to find my place.
It torments me for a few days but it always comes back.

Sorry I'm not very good in English and I'm not in a normal state.
I just needed to write..... to relieve the pain.
This post may not stay either