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Back again with another life update!
3 years ago
Ohhhh yes, it's that time where I dump my life story on y'all. So, there's good news and some bad news. I'll obviously start with the bad news first, so we can at least address the elephant in the room.
Bad News: So apparently I DID get an update from that facility, however, they found a place that I didn't expect it to be. Ocala FL. Which is up North from Orlando. Which I did take a trip to some time back in January. With this said, you would assume I'd say "fuck no that's too far" right? I wish.... On top of this news, when I told my parents, they were ecstatic about the news. This was met by a family meeting of sorts. So they said that they were going to Ocala too. So a mental representation of glass broke in the back of my mind. I thought, "oh no no no no no fuck no I'm not having this happen again!" Since I don't want them to live with them anymore. Then, they explained that they were going to a different town, or district there. So in other words, I'd still be away, just not SUPER far. That sounds like good news to some, right? Not really. The whole point is to be completely away from them because the emotional damage I went through with my father, and my step mother. In addition to this harsh realization, I'm forced to call a two weeks notice at work, so I'll have at least 2 weeks before I'm scheduled to move out. And this also means I'll be transferring collages. College of Central Florida to be more specific. That means that I'll be leaving my newly made friends behind, which hurts, because it's been a whole ass year and I made great connections so quickly, and they put up with my irl vents, hell, I even joined an LGBTQA+ club that was at one of the campuses that I went to just becuase I wanted to give it a try. And I did. And I LOVED every minute of it. Top of that... I can't bring my pets... They can. I'm just not allowed too...
Good News: With moving up, this means that I'll be paying less of what I was already paying in rent. $800 was my original payment for each month that I stayed with them. With where I'm going now, I'm having to pay $600. Which isn't too bad. Top of that, the area is 20 minutes away from the main city. Ohhhh yeah. It's that kinda place. No judgment at all tbh. It reminds me of when I was in St. Augustine during my sophomore year of high school, oof. That was yeaaaars ago! But yea nothing unexpected, really. The campus I'm going to, has a tuition price of $2,710, which isn't so bad. I mean imo Palm Beach State was cheaper but okay. The house that I'm going to isn't too small. In fact it's moderate. But I don't like anything too big anyways. Just the basic nessesities. Maybe I'll meet some decent people there? Idk? I'm still trying to keep my head up about all of this, plus I still have my friends contacts so it's not like I'm gonna just dump them. That's not gonna happen. Not on my watch.
Over all things at home: Ehhhh, I mean they've been somewhat understanding, my step brother isn't too happy about it, I get that... I'm very conflicted about the whole move in general. Like, I've only been here for one year, and I really thought I was gonna change my life for the better. Well... No. I mean understandably I was grieving and still am. This month is the anniversary of her passing. I'm not really taking it too well, but I can't keep droning on about it. I mean I mostly just keep things to myself so I don't bring the awkwardness to other folks. And plus I'm very careful about who I vent to. I'm not even wanting to vent in servers because I'm worried I'll scare someone off. If you know me, I have a huge tendency to write in huge paragraphs, pages upon pages of baggage. That says waaaay too much and sometimes I'll get into too much information to a point where I'd get blocked.
"Doesn't look good on you, as an artist. You may lose potential clients with your temper."
So yea, I've been keeping my emotions on a down-low. I often try to summarize my problems into a few words. Ultimately, they come off as too aggressive and hostile, which is what I never intended to do. Which btw, if I hurt anyone with my words in the past, I'm taking this chance to say that I'm very sorry. I'm only looking foward to bigger and better things. And I'm sure once I get my own home, no roommates. Just a home by myself, I'll be happy. And no need for me to be on meds that's for sure lmao!
Sadly with all the changes going around, I will be SUPER slow with commissions. Which is why I may keep them semi open. Or traditional? I'll figure that out later. But yes, I'm sorry if I'm taking way too long just to even say "hi". But just wanting to give my final words before posting.
So if you made it this far, here. πͺ Have a cookie.
Anyways, thanks for reading, and please have a good one folks.
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Hope things settle down
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