Even resisting reading the news except maybe a couple times a week at most, I find the dread state of the world draining my will to live: the deterioration of the environment, the surge of Fascism thanks to plutocratic oligarchs and religious extremists and white supremacists, the horrible humidity and heat of summer coming on, and the general state of affairs in my immediate life.

I've been having trouble sleeping and my health (mental and physical) are very poor. I get tired so easily, my back and joints hurt, I take so long to recuperate from minor tasks that it seems like I can't make any headway, and the way things are currently going I'd be content not waking up one of these days.

The circumstances I deal with seem to indicate I have no future, no current life, no meaningful world experience (either personal or of value to others), and am little more than a bitter, broken bastard with no means of improving my situation. I can barely help my disabled mother and struggle to bite my tongue due to having no one else to vent to...

I feel like even posting this on my rarely observed Watcher account on FA is just an invite to any who read it to call me a malingering asshole seeking attention, to buck up because I've got it easy, or the usual "Fuck you, loser." things I have come to expect from most people. Let's just say my ability to trust people and expect positive interactions is severely damaged, kind of like my sanity I guess.

In any event, TTFN.