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Conventions and a general update
3 years ago
I’m going to BLFC and AWU 2022! Maybe you’ll run into me there?
Generally, I’m doing alright. I think I’m “languishing” – I put it in quotes because I think it’s more a buzzword from an article than a legitimate psychologist’s term, but it means a joyless state somewhere between flourishing (“normal life”) and depression or other mental illness. Essentially, life feels empty most of the time, but I don’t have any symptoms of mental illness.
That’s probably connected to my struggles in figuring out what I want to do with my life. I might be going back to college soon to study computing. My job where I currently work is all right, but there’s really nothing for me in it. There is nothing that I fundamentally enjoy doing enough to feel like I have a purpose there.
Beyond that, I am trying to puzzle out relationships. I don’t know what I want from a partner, whether it be just sexual, romantic, or both. I’ve also been trying to figure out how to balance my social life with the rest of my life. It’s a very tricky struggle, one that everyone faces, but I can’t help but feel like I don’t know where to turn to find answers.
Don’t take this the wrong way, though. All of what I’ve written makes it sound like I am not enjoying my life right now. I’m managing to have a pretty good time despite everything I’m facing. I am doing a lot of social stuff, making meaningful relationships, and really delving into hobbies I enjoy.
Along with all of this, I’ve been working on a few projects that I will eventually post here. One is a story I am writing in response to a request, while the other is a Collab between me and another person. I don’t know how many more of these big projects I will do in the future, as it often takes me a good deal of time on my best days to be able to continue a story I’ve been writing. I think I am more comfortable keeping my stories to short, unedited works.
Generally, I’m doing alright. I think I’m “languishing” – I put it in quotes because I think it’s more a buzzword from an article than a legitimate psychologist’s term, but it means a joyless state somewhere between flourishing (“normal life”) and depression or other mental illness. Essentially, life feels empty most of the time, but I don’t have any symptoms of mental illness.
That’s probably connected to my struggles in figuring out what I want to do with my life. I might be going back to college soon to study computing. My job where I currently work is all right, but there’s really nothing for me in it. There is nothing that I fundamentally enjoy doing enough to feel like I have a purpose there.
Beyond that, I am trying to puzzle out relationships. I don’t know what I want from a partner, whether it be just sexual, romantic, or both. I’ve also been trying to figure out how to balance my social life with the rest of my life. It’s a very tricky struggle, one that everyone faces, but I can’t help but feel like I don’t know where to turn to find answers.
Don’t take this the wrong way, though. All of what I’ve written makes it sound like I am not enjoying my life right now. I’m managing to have a pretty good time despite everything I’m facing. I am doing a lot of social stuff, making meaningful relationships, and really delving into hobbies I enjoy.
Along with all of this, I’ve been working on a few projects that I will eventually post here. One is a story I am writing in response to a request, while the other is a Collab between me and another person. I don’t know how many more of these big projects I will do in the future, as it often takes me a good deal of time on my best days to be able to continue a story I’ve been writing. I think I am more comfortable keeping my stories to short, unedited works.
