Yet another week has flown by and This time we only have the one lewd Espeon to show for it, but before we get into that I wanna lay some things out for our future benefit.

I'll drop the "bomb" here first, I have AS (Aspergers) and without getting into too much detail it means that my writing or behaviour can seem odd to people. It has happened before. I'm not trying to make excuses or to use my condition as a crutch, I take full responsibility over my own actions. The point of me coming out about it is to maybe give you some much needed context IF or WHEN there's something about my written word or general conduct that you find weird somehow.
One example would be that I tend to overexplain and try to sound overtly eloquent, other times much too direct or blunt and even insensitive. I will not always realize what I've done unless it's pointed out to me in clear english. Know I don't try to be intentionally abrasive or cruel with strangers on the internet or otherwise. To an extent, I've come to accept and appreciate these traits in me and will not compromise them no matter what, but I'm perfectly willing to give you my apologies as long as you're willing to explain to me how I've been an asshole.
It makes me happy when I'm allowed to express myself as clearly as I can so there is no room left for misinterpretation, I also have to insist on doing everything my way or else there's tremendous resistance and pain from the Brain. Being able to use this Journalspace to speak freely too is just one of the ways inwhich I find the satisfaction and peace of mind that I need, therefore you can continue to expect weekly updates here because the structured approach helps me cope with my brains.
Noone's gonna ask this of me but this just for the record, I'm not gonna pretend to speak for the "AS community" whatever that is. I don't seek them out or hang out with them. I don't need help with this, and if I do I seek it out from professionals or my close friends. I can and will Only speak for myself.

You might think this was not even a little necessary, and you might be right.

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My Fourth Espeon came out just a scant couple days ago, felt pretty good to do it too. Real Talk? I'm still kinda awkward about tryna do actual porn, I honestly didn't think I had it in me, especially after staring at Espeons 1 through 3, but there she is now happyily taking a quirked up white cock goated in sauce inside of her. I think it's genuinely a good thing for my future output that I've broken through the artificial barrier of misguided modesty, so now the floodgates can be more open. What I mean by that is I think it'll be possible from now on to be more honest about what I really want to do, and so much of it is thanks to all you wonderful genius artists out there like   Camotli   kekitopu_fa   SeviYummy and   MischievousMonica who have recently become a Tremendous source of inspiration and influence for my growth as a Digital Picturemaker. You have my deepest gratitude for making me feel actually excited to get to work again!

I have to confess, For the longest time I've resisted going into pornmaking because I had this dumbass notion in my head of it being somehow beneath me. I'm really glad that being here more actively the last couple weeks has humbled my perspective on the value and quality of my own work. My world of digital artistry has expanded by a great deal thanks to all of you who continue to produce artworks of all skill levels with a kindof perceived sincerity that I'm not used to seeing. Somehow it feels more real to me when the subjectmatter is "Taboo" you know? I'm sure this has nothing to do with how I grew up in a relatively conservative environment :), but I digress. Point being I don't want to carry on with some stupid mentality about how "true" artistry is an exclusive club for the real doers and pioneers. I want to learn how to Not treat this like it's a competition to be the best, but instead to learn and improve my skills for my own sake instead of chasing monetary gains.

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On another note I wanna acknowledge account related things.

I consider it a bit of a shame that there's only been one submission in the last week, I really had to sort out that Commissiondeal first since it was causing me so much headache and distraction. Just to be clear, the Unrelated commission thing IS indeed sorted out and I can put more focus on Pokephilia again. Frankly speaking it's a load off the shoulders, this here is definitely what's driving my development right now. Speaking of which, I'm continuing to consistently sweat over Espeon (Stupid Sexy 'Speon) so you can pretty safely expect more of that as I continue to experiment and look for that Style that suits my way.

With that In mind, Once again I'd like to give my sincere thanks to the people who've dropped Favorites for even the shittier test pieces, it continues to be more encouraging than you know.
I'd also like to give special thanks to my actual watchers who continue to steadily grow in number, you know who you are and must also know that I appreciate you.

Yeah I guess that's all I had in me this time, please look forward to the next thing.