I'm back from small break, had some time to chill out and sort out a lot to do with my career and everything. A lot of overthinking and stress contributed to me thinking about leaving FA including fitting college and a job into my schedule. Though it is about 15 days until I start off it will have a significant impact on my life and a lot will change when and after I leave out of state, I am autistic and small changes to my routine already causes a lot of anxiety to begin with so something like this is just... a lot to take in. I've decided FULLY to not leave entirely after having a vivid moment of clarity (at 3 in the morning) and I'll just post here, semi-regularly. It just won't be too often in a bit do to school.

I've found that I just need to just keep doing what I've been doing and everything will be alright. I hope that small quote is a bit of help to others as well.

last Journal for a bit so I'm not that much of a bother. Commissions might return at a smaller scale so I don't stress myself into leaving again.

I'm sorry if I scared anyone with my last journal please don't hate me ;3;

Love you all
-JJ