After 10 or so years on and off in Montana I have moved states. :)

Im now an Oregon fur and am exploring what this state and I have to offer each other.
Why leave Montana?

I felt like Id run out of resources. I know I got lucky. A lot of bad things happened to me in Missoula, but I got to grow a lot too. And some of those things could have been so much worse.

Im grateful for the people who supported me from afar through one incredibly bad living situation after another and removing myself from a relationship that was no longer good for me physically or mentally.

I recognize I got lucky. And now I am happy to start over somewhere new. I still have my same issues, I still have cptsd and depression gnawing at me, intrusive thoughts that are at times very loud. With all the changes in the past months, nightmares and symptom flare ups are common, but I am doing my best to deal with it and rest whenever possible.

I have my family within hugging distance again, and while it isnt everyone, even just having one person who I can support and be supported by in return, somebody who understands the full scope of my past and even shares some of it, has made a lot of difference.

Im hoping, that maybe here in my 30's I can make myself somewhere to call home and maybe commit to settling close to family. Maybe I can commit myself to making my own stability. Little by little I am seeing how much I can do and discovering if Id like to stay here or keep searching for home. Here's to hoping ✨