Over the past two months I had gone through a lot of self-improvement - although there were many hiccups along the way and experiences I'd like to take back, I feel I'm still coming out of things a better person than before.

I hadn't voiced it outside of my friend group, but for years I've been dealing with issues with my self image, and for a while I began to think I would be happier if I weren't masculine; I went through many different attempts of satisfying my issues, and I found the sweet spot in being nonbinary. I feel presenting myself as such lifts a weight from my shoulders I've had since I was a child...

I have many plans for my art, such as practicing making animation model sheets and improving my techniques in ways I never attempted, and I'm hoping by next spring I will be able to finally get proper education towards such by returning to college, since almost every aspect of my development as an artist has been self-taught.

Unfortunately I've been declining in health for a while now, and what I'm experiencing has resulted in frequent fainting spells, of which will further put a damper on my work ethic; I'm hoping that at some point to get a full answer from a professional, but for the time being my only guess is that it might be neurocardiogenic or occupational syncope, with the worst case scenario being orthostatic hypotension caused by Parkinson's disease, which I'm worried I've been developing over the course of my life, which has merit to the fact I shake to the point of not being able to properly write on paper...

I'm hoping to be able to work more productively in the future once my fainting spells are sorted out, and I'm anticipating improving on my art to the point of working on professional projects as an occupation after college.