I just want to explain my situation for anyone who might noticed I disabled my account.

I have been struggling to keep going lately, after losing my 8 years long friendship with my best friend and eventually girlfriend, I felt devastated. I noticed that I had no other friends to keep me company on that hard times, I felt so alone, and I noticed my life is really trash and with no social life included. My whole classmates from my college classroom hates me, I have no friend in college and is hard to be on a place where they make you know you don't belong, plus not having the healthiest relationship with my family, losing my only friend in the world and being an introvert anxious depressed piece of trash wouldn't help me making new friends.

Basically my ex was a cool FA babyfur artist that many of you already know but I'm not gonna mention. She's a really nice person, but one day she just decided that she was done with anything babyfur or diaper related, that including me of course. My anxiety made me do stupid things like sending messages to one of her friends and even a family member of her, just to know what went wrong and how to fix it, but that definitely went wrong and now our friendship seems to be completely ruined, a longrun of 8 years of friendship just destroyed on a random day because yes and nothing else.

I felt so bad that for a couple days I had thoughts about not being worth it to keep going, as I had no hope of doing something productive for the world. I started to hate my babyfur thing, diapers, I was already completely in mind of leave everything behind and start pretending to be someone else to manage to make friends, because the way I am and having this weird love for diapers looks like I will be alone for the rest of my life.

That's why I disabled my account, but I regret a couple days after, and I started to think again that this is who I am and I shouldn't be ashamed for what I like, life is so short to be caring of what other people would think of me, but still the part of being alone, of losing the most special person in your life, and not having the charisma to make new friends, having basically 0 irl real friends, is really hard...

I want to apologize to you all for disappearing this way, and I also wanted to thank you all for all the support I had from you along the way, thanks to you I started to accept myself back then when I started uploading my art, and even if I had plans to do my own non babyfur projects, I don't think I would ever stop drawing babyfur because that's now part of me, and I like it and makes me so happy. So again thank you everyone who manage to read the whole thing, I love you guys.