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super duper anxiety
3 years ago
EHH i tried to make this journal like 6 times, i always felt so wrong talking about this while i have some work to do
last 2 month i feel myself really really bad, and last 2 weeks its going so much worse i cant even handle it. I dont have powers to walk my dog, to eat, to do home things, to work and the most worse thing i cant simply communicate with people. I see my friends trying to talk to me, i ignore them cause im afraid of the long dialog. And I feel guilty.
Cant even reply to the comments.
Dont wanna cry poor mouth, just to make it clear: i've diagnosed BPD year ago or so, maybe it'll make sence for you.
alas my mate cant find any work since February and i have to pay for everything since then, this makes me much more depressed, we fight a lot cause of this. I just feel like i wanna have some rest I cant get since we need to eat and pay the rent, etc etc
and, well, i just wanted to say please if you can let me rest a bit. If you're my commissioner and you dont care about missed deadline for a month let me know. i dont think i ever missed deadlines and what happens now feel like a big problem for me. Basically I cant even look at the tablet without thinking of killing myself lmao
friends, im sorry i ignore you. I dont have any powers to chat.
last 2 month i feel myself really really bad, and last 2 weeks its going so much worse i cant even handle it. I dont have powers to walk my dog, to eat, to do home things, to work and the most worse thing i cant simply communicate with people. I see my friends trying to talk to me, i ignore them cause im afraid of the long dialog. And I feel guilty.
Cant even reply to the comments.
Dont wanna cry poor mouth, just to make it clear: i've diagnosed BPD year ago or so, maybe it'll make sence for you.
alas my mate cant find any work since February and i have to pay for everything since then, this makes me much more depressed, we fight a lot cause of this. I just feel like i wanna have some rest I cant get since we need to eat and pay the rent, etc etc
and, well, i just wanted to say please if you can let me rest a bit. If you're my commissioner and you dont care about missed deadline for a month let me know. i dont think i ever missed deadlines and what happens now feel like a big problem for me. Basically I cant even look at the tablet without thinking of killing myself lmao
friends, im sorry i ignore you. I dont have any powers to chat.
im not a scammer or smth, ofc i will finish the queue