Like.. I dunno if being known like the artists I follow would be stressful or anxiety inducing for me since well.. I am still trying to figure out myself and what I want as a sona / what I want to do with my species. I feel like I would aggravate/annoy people with the constant swapping and trying out of things. Which, to those that I've already have annoyed due to this, sorry, I am just lost and indecisive.

Popularity is something I see as a curse more than a blessing since I've seen so many people get such a MASSIVE ego over it and turn into a huge prick. It's just not great, I suppose, which brings me to a conundrum where I want to make my species well-known but that would require me becoming popular as well so.. it's a thing, I guess.