I was talking to my psychologist this week about the side effects of meds I've recently started and she's worried I'm going to relapse into depression again.
Apathy, insensitivity and the need for isolation are more present than ever.
In fact, my anxiety attacks have gone down considerably, but the feeling part too…so even if something bad and sad happens, I can't feel anything.
I feel like my feelings are trapped in a box inside and although I don't feel them I "hear" them making noise disturbing me all day, the only time I can make them "shut up" is when I sleep
I hope that, even losing this sensitivity to express myself, one day I will be able to convey with art or music what I feel [I am taking violin lessons] and that one day my music will deafen these bad thoughts and my drawings will give me enough comfort and bring me peace