I am still slowly finishing up old art. it's been difficult for me to squeeze it out. I feel like I lost my ability to do digital. I love doing traditional though and it flows so much better.

As far as my health, mental health is controlled..but I am bored and depressed due to how my future looks.
I injured my back in 2020, and since then have 3 more times had it lock up with spasms in the most painful moments of my life. Screaming my throat raw, unable to dress myself, sleep, or even pee on my own. It is embarrassing to be so debilitated.

Once again I am healing, resting, unable to take my daily nature walks or sit in a chair for too long, or stand too long. And even laying leaves my leg numbing out or hurting.

Insurance is a battle ground to get the MRI my doctors want.

I know I have family and friends..but I feel so very alone. Why would anyone want a disabled me? I dont joke as much, I cant do tasks that make my stay worth while...Im just freeloading and scraping by to pay my phone bill.

Once I finish the owed digital art, I am sticking to traditional media. And will be charging more my worth. I do clay, and am learning basic jewerly, I want to do resin, and I of course paint and draw. I look forward to coming back to y'all...if I can support myself even a little, I think I can see some light in the world.