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Being Cast Aside...
3 years ago
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The world changes every single day. Every week. Every month. Every year. Hell, probably every single second something in the world is changing heavily and never going to return to the way it used to be. And, while this is a harsh reality, it's seriously frustrating when it comes to...human beings.
We all have fights. We have arguments. We have disagreements. We each feel or think differently about EVERYTHING. Even if you think you and someone else think or feel 100% the same way, I guarantee that that isn't the case. Every single person in the world is unique and different. But, what hurts me the most is how quick people are to push you away, cast you aside, ignore you, refuse to give you chances to become better, and are so quick to move on when they feel like they're done with you or they're "over" you.
Someday, we're all going to be dead. Every one of us. Everyone you see out on the streets, inside stores, inside your homes, online...everywhere. You never know when your life is going to be taken from you. Or when someone else's will. Such as Volsar Rewtree, the famous Abra who was known all throughout Deviantart, FurAffinity Inkbunny, Twitter, Discord, you name it. He was taken far too young. And then there's Spencer, the macro wolf, who was also taken far too young. Life is too short.
This is why...I have to ask. Why are people constantly so cruel? Why are they so quick to banish you to the realm of 'nonexistent' when they feel like you no longer matter to them? Why do people always think about themselves only? We all have feelings and emotions. We all hurt. We all feel pain. Emotional, mental, physical...we all feel these things. I've messed up more times than I can remember, but I keep trying to get better, and knowing how much it hurts to stop being cared about due to nonstop abuse from 12 years of school, from my father leaving forever when I was only 8-years-old, and much more...I don't close my doors. When people hurt me, I'm always open to amending fences. That is how it should be.
Why do we only care about fighting nowadays? All we care about is how fast we can block one another...how fast we can tell someone else off...how fast we can get someone 'cancelled'...how fast we can hate someone's guts for not being the same political party as you, or same religion as you, or like the same kinks as you, or have the same personality as you want...it's gross. We all have flaws...some of us way more than others...but that doesn't mean we should shut those people out of our lives and stop acting like they don't exist. Just remember: you may be hurt by what someone else says or did, but they can equally be as hurt as you. Put yourself in their shoes.
I am constantly being tossed aside, ignored, disregarded, hated, 'moved on from', blocked, slandered, and much more. And I'm tired of it. All I've ever tried to do is enjoy my time with others, and do things to bring entertainment to others. That's the whole point of the stories I've attempted to do. If they were all about me, I would just use my own characters only and that's it. But the fact I want to use other peoples' characters proves that I just want to bring joy to as many as people. I want to roleplay with people because building such relationships and bonds can really help you when you need some love and intimate time with somebody when you start to feel depressed or overwhelmed by how much the world is kicking you down.
I want to go back to how things used to be...5, 10, maybe even 15 years ago. It's never too late. I've had some growing up to do, I've had to take some medication, I've had to take counseling, I've had to suffer a lot of loss and pain, I've had to deal with a lot. I'm not the same person I used to be. To anybody out there who has claimed that I've hurt them in some fashion, or has annoyed them, or did SOMETHING to anger you so badly that you simply HAD to get me out of your life and you never looked back...I'm sorry. From the bottom of my heart, I'm sorry. Please, give me another chance. I don't want to keep being alone. I don't want just a random word from an acquaintance now and then and that's it.
Please just give me another chance already. I beg you all. Look how short life is. Spencer is gone. Volsar is gone. Who knows who might be next. Please, can we stop spreading hate and distancing ourselves from one another? We need to spread love, and kindness, and forgiveness. Look in your hearts and please allow me back in. You won't regret it.
We all have fights. We have arguments. We have disagreements. We each feel or think differently about EVERYTHING. Even if you think you and someone else think or feel 100% the same way, I guarantee that that isn't the case. Every single person in the world is unique and different. But, what hurts me the most is how quick people are to push you away, cast you aside, ignore you, refuse to give you chances to become better, and are so quick to move on when they feel like they're done with you or they're "over" you.
Someday, we're all going to be dead. Every one of us. Everyone you see out on the streets, inside stores, inside your homes, online...everywhere. You never know when your life is going to be taken from you. Or when someone else's will. Such as Volsar Rewtree, the famous Abra who was known all throughout Deviantart, FurAffinity Inkbunny, Twitter, Discord, you name it. He was taken far too young. And then there's Spencer, the macro wolf, who was also taken far too young. Life is too short.
This is why...I have to ask. Why are people constantly so cruel? Why are they so quick to banish you to the realm of 'nonexistent' when they feel like you no longer matter to them? Why do people always think about themselves only? We all have feelings and emotions. We all hurt. We all feel pain. Emotional, mental, physical...we all feel these things. I've messed up more times than I can remember, but I keep trying to get better, and knowing how much it hurts to stop being cared about due to nonstop abuse from 12 years of school, from my father leaving forever when I was only 8-years-old, and much more...I don't close my doors. When people hurt me, I'm always open to amending fences. That is how it should be.
Why do we only care about fighting nowadays? All we care about is how fast we can block one another...how fast we can tell someone else off...how fast we can get someone 'cancelled'...how fast we can hate someone's guts for not being the same political party as you, or same religion as you, or like the same kinks as you, or have the same personality as you want...it's gross. We all have flaws...some of us way more than others...but that doesn't mean we should shut those people out of our lives and stop acting like they don't exist. Just remember: you may be hurt by what someone else says or did, but they can equally be as hurt as you. Put yourself in their shoes.
I am constantly being tossed aside, ignored, disregarded, hated, 'moved on from', blocked, slandered, and much more. And I'm tired of it. All I've ever tried to do is enjoy my time with others, and do things to bring entertainment to others. That's the whole point of the stories I've attempted to do. If they were all about me, I would just use my own characters only and that's it. But the fact I want to use other peoples' characters proves that I just want to bring joy to as many as people. I want to roleplay with people because building such relationships and bonds can really help you when you need some love and intimate time with somebody when you start to feel depressed or overwhelmed by how much the world is kicking you down.
I want to go back to how things used to be...5, 10, maybe even 15 years ago. It's never too late. I've had some growing up to do, I've had to take some medication, I've had to take counseling, I've had to suffer a lot of loss and pain, I've had to deal with a lot. I'm not the same person I used to be. To anybody out there who has claimed that I've hurt them in some fashion, or has annoyed them, or did SOMETHING to anger you so badly that you simply HAD to get me out of your life and you never looked back...I'm sorry. From the bottom of my heart, I'm sorry. Please, give me another chance. I don't want to keep being alone. I don't want just a random word from an acquaintance now and then and that's it.
Please just give me another chance already. I beg you all. Look how short life is. Spencer is gone. Volsar is gone. Who knows who might be next. Please, can we stop spreading hate and distancing ourselves from one another? We need to spread love, and kindness, and forgiveness. Look in your hearts and please allow me back in. You won't regret it.
know your not alone there are 7 billion people on this planet all flawed in their own ways there are atleast a few million people like you the hard part is finding them
the past is haunting i know thinking of when things were simple when there was no pain no sadness no hopelessness only carefree happiness the thoughts of the past of simpler better times are perhaps one of the worst parts it still gets me sometimes and i have had alot of time to get used to the things that made me sad but the past still gets to me more than anything
Honestly, I think it's because most of us in the fandom have spent a long enough time in it to know that the block button is there to be used and that there's more important things to do in life than tango with people causing problems. Like, ten years ago I'd probably spend a week untangling problems within my friends groups. Now I just laugh/sigh, ignore and move on.
Because when you cause problems, when you are the common denominator in problems, you'll find yourself being tossed aside and talked about. In this day and age, people aren't looking to risk wasting their time on someone with a track record of being problematic. And when people have receipts of their claims it's no longer slander, it's fact.
All you can do is work to show you've changed, own up to your wrong doings (without blame shifting or deflecting) and hope the people you've hurt might open back up to you. Regardless of your commitment, your intentions, some people just don't want to risk going through it all again.
We're all older, some of us are wiser.
Sometimes we change and become much better people. Others just plant flowers to hide the bear-trap.
Just gotta move on, my guy. You can't be lamenting over people you hurt not wanting to be around you. Can't hang on regrets.
Focus on what you have and cherish that you still have them, that you haven't hurt them or provided a reason to leave. Do what you can to keep them in your life.