I keep trying to write my thoughts out lately and it just doesn't happen. Yesterday spent a good chunk of time writing something. Ditched it.

My girlfriend and I are expecting in January. It's been very hard on me. We were in the process of breaking up when it happened. We're still living together and everything is OK with the pregnancy but, it's Def conflicted.

I'm extremely uneasy, burnt out, angry, on edge. I absolutely cannot ground myself. Been having more frequent migraines and my skin has really went to hell from the stress. Sometimes it's painful enough where I have trouble sleeping or sitting still.

Got put on a super hard project at work and it's out of my realm of patience, and im applying for jobs because I haven't been given a raise since 2018. Both of my vehicles are broken down, the tractor I use to feed the horses in the winter is broken down, my parents need help, I've overscheduled myself with side work.

I'll somehow make it though it, it helps to lay it out.