I’m sleeping worse than ever since I started antidepressants, and the swelling in my feet is becoming worrisome. I think anxiety is getting worse, too, gradually since I took my first dose last week.

I just want to sleep. Please let me sleep. This does not feel like progress.

I want to be normal. I want to feel normal. I want to reclaim that feeling of being able to do anything, conquer anything. I haven’t slept a whole night through in a week. Anxiety seems to increase when I take the pill.

Doctor said to try taking the pill in the morning instead of evening and see if that helps. Fair enough. Complex problems often have simple solutions.

Having a very difficult time concentrating on anything. All I want to do is stare at the wall and listen to music. I want to write, but thoughts don’t coalesce.

I’m waiting to feel normal again. I’ll settle for feeling “ok.” When does that start?