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3 years ago
Okay, finally I got a full load of hate and death wishes because of my nationality.
I did everything what I could against war and will do it till the very end, but damn. Hurtful. Had not felt so shitty for a long time.
- You stand for the war - the world hate you
- You stand against war - still the same
Fuck, I didn't choose the country I was born, I never supported this government, I don't want to be Russian at all, but I can not just enter the Kremlin and kill Putin (I really would like though). People are frightened and it slowed all the protests before, now I hope they will get stronger, but I don't know what to expect tomorrow.
I am not frightened of mobilisation, I am frightened of seeing lives that are being ruined for already half of a year and now it may last even longer. I don't know what to do. It is useless to seek help in psychologists and such now because we are all in a deep hell, with all the psychologists. I really hope those morons will not see this journal anyway, I just needed to cry it all out because I guess I really have no one to hear it out.
I did everything what I could against war and will do it till the very end, but damn. Hurtful. Had not felt so shitty for a long time.
- You stand for the war - the world hate you
- You stand against war - still the same
Fuck, I didn't choose the country I was born, I never supported this government, I don't want to be Russian at all, but I can not just enter the Kremlin and kill Putin (I really would like though). People are frightened and it slowed all the protests before, now I hope they will get stronger, but I don't know what to expect tomorrow.
I am not frightened of mobilisation, I am frightened of seeing lives that are being ruined for already half of a year and now it may last even longer. I don't know what to do. It is useless to seek help in psychologists and such now because we are all in a deep hell, with all the psychologists. I really hope those morons will not see this journal anyway, I just needed to cry it all out because I guess I really have no one to hear it out.
Everything is too scary out there, we only have this one planet to live on, and we are ALL the human race.
I will never understand why people think it's okay to attack the citizens, they didn't start this, they didn't want this
Stay strong, just hold on for as long as you can and try your best to wait this out, if there's no way to leave
Untill then - oh fuck, thanks god I have such a nice auditory, your support is now just SO MUCH IMPORTRANT you can't imagine.
I have a similar situation, I'm disabled due to illness as well and the worst part is seeing my partner get so stressed about it. Stress can cause illness too so it's worrying. I hope things can ease up a bit, so at least you'll have less stress for the time being, you have a lot going on.
You may have cruel people attacking you, but you've got a lot of people that want to support you as well, I promise that, monetarily as well as emotional/encouragement to do your best!
No matter how bad things get, just try and remember that there are still plenty of people in the world who understand, and only want what's best for you all. I wish you and your family the absolute best, please stay safe. 🤍