Heartfelt Apology...
3 years ago
Tammy: "Hello everybody!" waves at you guys
Hey guys. So, I just had a Bible study today that really spoke to me, and reminded me that I'm not really living like a Christian should be. A while back, probably like a year ago, I told you guys that I was struggling with the sin of lust. And I've continued to do so to this day. And that even extends to a lot of RPs I've done with some of you guys. And I just wanted to say... I'm sorry.
Yes... I'm sorry that I was letting my lustful thoughts and desires be my drive for the RPs I've done with some of you. And I'm sorry that I was leading you guys down the road of destruction. If I claim to be a Christian, then my life should reflect that. And some of the RPs I did can attest that I'm not a real Christian.
And these desires have also gone towards the art I've gotten. I have said before that I wanna focus more on getting more pure and simple art. But I need to work on that some more.
So... I ask for all of your forgiveness. If you guys think I did nothing wrong, then I have to be straightforward. You're wrong for thinking that. I knew in my heart what I was doing isn't pleasing to God. But I put that aside to satisfy my flesh. I've even wished that I didn't exist so that I wouldn't have put you guys through this. But I'm here now, and I still have a chance to make things right. So can you all forgive me?
Yes... I'm sorry that I was letting my lustful thoughts and desires be my drive for the RPs I've done with some of you. And I'm sorry that I was leading you guys down the road of destruction. If I claim to be a Christian, then my life should reflect that. And some of the RPs I did can attest that I'm not a real Christian.
And these desires have also gone towards the art I've gotten. I have said before that I wanna focus more on getting more pure and simple art. But I need to work on that some more.
So... I ask for all of your forgiveness. If you guys think I did nothing wrong, then I have to be straightforward. You're wrong for thinking that. I knew in my heart what I was doing isn't pleasing to God. But I put that aside to satisfy my flesh. I've even wished that I didn't exist so that I wouldn't have put you guys through this. But I'm here now, and I still have a chance to make things right. So can you all forgive me?
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That being said, I'd like to bring the following to your attention and ask why they don't tell you about these verses in bible study?
Genesis 9:21-25 - Noah gets drunk enough to pass out naked and then when his son comes in and covers his gentials with a cloth he gets really mad and puts a curse on his son for doing that.
Deuteronomy 22:13-21 states that if a man believes his wife was not a virgin when they married, and her father cannot provide proof of her virginity, then "all the men of her city shall stone her."
Exodus 20-21 - One line states that if a slave dies while being beaten by their "master" then "he shall be surely punished." However, if they survive for "a day or two" after the beating, there will be no punishment for the "master."
In Leviticus 12, God tells Moses that if a woman gives birth to a son, she will be "ceremonially unclean for seven days, just as she is unclean during her monthly period." It goes on to state that it will take 33 days to be "purified." If the baby was a girl, it would take twice as long. The new mother must also bring sacrificial animals to her priest as "a burnt offering" and "a sin offering."
In Judges 11:30-31, Jephthah swears to God that if he is victorious in his upcoming battle he will make a burnt offering sacrifice of "whatever comes out of the door" of his home when he returns. It was his young daughter who came out of the house to greet him.
Judges 11:39 states that he then did burn her as a sacrifice.
In 2 Kings 2:23-24, the prophet Elisha is walking on a road when a group of "little children" start mocking him for being bald. Elisha then curses them, and immediately two female bears run out of the woods and maul 42 of the children to death.
Genesis 19:30–38, Lot and his daughters have gone into hiding. The two young women worry that they will never have children since they aren't able to meet any men. Lot's daughters solution to this is to feed him enough wine for him to pass out and then have their way with him while he's unconscious.
2 Kings 6.24-33 - I'm not going to post that here, it's too spicy for FA.
Deuteronomy 22:20–21 - If a woman isn't a virgin at birth she is to be executed.
The bible is FULL of verses like these, so I ask again why does bible study not teach about these verses unless it's to try and tell someone like me to be silent?
My honest advice, do what makes you happy so long as you don't harm anyone or anything else.
1. You're the broken one.
2. Only WE can FIX you.
3. If you point out OUR flaws, YOU'RE THE PROBLEM not us.
4. If you leave or don't CONFORM, you're nothing without us.
5. WE can do whatever we like and we're above reproach. If YOU speak out against us, you're the evil one.
6.YOU must tell EVERYONE ELSE how GOOD WE ARE or you're a FAILURE.
7.If SOMEONE ELSE tries to tell you DIFFERENT, you NEED to SILENCE them or CUT THEM OUT.
It's all just emotional manipulation and psychological attacks meant to keep you in the fold.
I'm not trying to be a troll or a brat, but will ask you to think about and seriously consider what I said.
I'm posting this here to hold myself to account for what I said, and what I'm saying now.
Regarding your first one, what's your message behind sending me all of those Bible verses?
(I ask because I sometimes have trouble understanding what I'm being told.)
If you're open to a conversation beyond that, then I'm open to conversation through IMs.
I'm also autistic, so I understand the basic information intake process.
What I'm genuinely concerned about is you feeling poorly about being whom you are for no reason.
So long as you're not victimising or hurting anyone else, I don't think you're doing anything wrong or any harm.
The thing I dislike about religion is that to me, it comes off as extremely manipulative and suppressive.
As such, it's often used by manipulative people as a vehicle and a weapon to further their own ends.
Outdated and extremely destructive bible verses aside, it's not hard to find stories from MOST religions of their leaders being abusive, destructive and outright evil for lack of a better term.
So long as you're not actively trying to hurt anyone else, wouldn't Jesus or God condone that at the very least?
Take a sin like gluttony for example. Eating a lot of food and filling yourself up doesn't really hurt anybody else, right? Wrong. It may not hurt them directly, but it could hurt them in the long-run. Like what if that food that you're gorging on could have been used to help feed some homeless people? If you get my point.
Lust is very much the same. See, fetishes can lead to lustful behaviors, and that often can be more dangerous than not. There's plenty of people out here that have been arrested due to sexually-driven behaviors. And that both hurts them, and people that care about them.
What if by giving food to this hypothetical homeless person you prevent them from starving to death today and then tomorrow they go and shoot up a supermarket and 10 people get injured?
THey could just as equally stumble upon the cure for the common cold in 15 years.
As for your example with sexual behavoir, you should *really* take a closer look at those bible verses I showed you where Yahweh not only condones sex and sexual behavoir, but also causes involuntary sexual behavoir with Lot and his daughters.
What I'm getting at here, is that so long as you're happy and you're not forcing yourself onto other people that don't want it, then I'm not seeing any problems there.
And I'll look at the Bible verses you sent. But I should also show you this.
https://www.gotquestions.org/sexual-fetish.html
Read that. I have.
They're creating a problem to sell you a solution.
So long as you don't hurt anyone else, I don't see a problem.
I think the issue here is that you're not actually thinking anything through, and you're just grabbing for easy answers because it's the path of seemingly least resistance.