Well, I hope this hole won't be too wide or deep. Please don't beat yourself up too bad; human minds and bodies are kinda fragile. Take care. ❤

I'm sorry to hear that Mirri, I hope you will pull through soon. Something like this just comes in the most inopportune times. However, always remember that all your watchers and the ones that also commission you are ok to wait, as long as we need to, so that you can continue when you feel better. If it gets to bad.

I sadly can't help in any meaningful way, other than writing this, however, as little as it is from a random person on the internet, I cross my fingers for you and all that. The only other things I could offer would be listening to your worries and all that, but than again, I am just a random guy that got a few pictures from you, so... yeah. At least I can offer that.

Hope you will have at least a good rest of the week and maybe even a very nice weekend. You can pull through this, you already did enough times to prove that. So here, have a virtual hug and all that~

I feel that waaaayyy too much. After 3 years of therapy I've been through most of it, and life has changed for the better now.
I hope you're holding out! Take your time, and take time for YOURSELF first and foremost. Do something good for you. If art isnt helping you right now, take your time off and go outside. Listen to music. Or do whatever you FEEL like in that moment.
You're doing great, and I hope you'll do even better in the future. Don't let your mindset control you! You're much much better than your mind wants you to believe! Get some hot chocolate, put yourself in a warm blanket, and know that you're actually very awesome >:3

And if you feel like you need to vent or just ramble - my notes are open for you! Stay safe ♥

Du bist die liebe lila Löwin. Ich hoffe das du diesen bösen Geister bald wieder aus deinen Gedanken vertreiben kannst. Diese wollen dich nur in ein tiefes schwarzes Loch ziehen.
Du bist eine starke Löwin und wirst dich da an dem Rand des Lochs festhalten und langsam wieder an Licht arbeiten, was aber seine Zeit benötigt.
Das du das alles hier niedergeschrieben hast, war sicher für dich schon anstrengend, wenn es niedergeschrieben ist, sind die Gedanken andere.

Oh no, I'm sorry to read that.
Depression is so annoying, I'm battling it for years myself and for me, it also comes in waves.
I wish you the best of luck and the strength to go through this quickly. Be kind to yourself and dont put more pressure on top of it by forcing yourself to be social and productive. Sometimes you just need a break and that's okay.

I have strong anxiety, too, and i KNOW what you mean! At home, anxiety is something annoying, but managable, but going outside with it, oof. You really need to prep yourself to step outside and the whole process is just suffering and keeping it together somehow. It sucks. But you're so strong for actually still doing it, going to work, and fight yourself through the day! Good job! And if you need more rest than usual in the evening, then thats how it is. Dont feel bad about it.

Keep your heads up and keep on fighting. This phase will go over eventually and you will feel better. And until then, be kind to yourself, take things slowly, maybe have some tasty food or a hot chocolate and just survive. That's all that's important. Everything else can be taken care of later ♥

Depressive phases are awful, I'm sorry you're going through that.
I hope it won't last too long, look after yourself <3

Sorry to hear that, depression is awful :(

Hopefully it won't be long, hang in there and take all the time you need!

Meh .... *Klopft sich mit dem Demonslayer-schwert bis zu dir durch*
Mitviecher!
Alle guten Ratschläge, die ich sagen will sind scheiße. Ich kenne solche ähnlichen Momente, hatte sie letztens erst. Fühl dich gedrückt und lass dich nicht unterkriegen :(

I'm sorry you're having a difficult time with depression again. To try to combat those thoughts you're having with it, I want you to know that I feel it's been a pleasure being your friend all these years from our early Lilymud days.^^ Still have all the art you've drawn me over the years and every piece still makes me smile so thank you again for them and hope hearing that helps also. *hugs*

I'm sorry you're stuck in a mean-brain phase! I hope that you feel better soon, and don't have to be so tired.

*Knuddel* Die Sorte Phase kenne ich selber nur zu gut - stecke momentan selber in einer - wenn auch nicht (dauerhaft) so gravierend, wie bei dir. Bei mir ist das eher ein auf und ab ohne erkennbares Muster.
Nichtsdestoweniger muss ich zwei Dinge loswerden.
Erstens: Du bist KEINE Enttäuschung - verdammt, ich wüsste nicht mal, wie du das anstellen solltest. Und ja, du verdienst es sehr wohl, glücklich zu sein!
Ich weiß, dass du das selber weißt, aber ich weiß auch, wie wichtig es in so einer Episode ist, Zuspruch von außen zu bekommen. Darum wiederhole ich das gerne so oft, wie nötig.

Zweitens, ich freue mich sehr, von dir zu hören. Denn: der schwarze Hund namens Depression versucht, dich zu isolieren - und dass es ihm offenkundig nicht gelingt, macht mich froh.

Du weißt, ich bin gerne für dich da, wenn du bei einem virtuellen Becher Tee, einem Topf Honig, und einem Pott Katzenminze dir etwas von der Seele reden oder schreiben möchtest.

Du bist nicht alleine, Mirri!

Don't know if that helps.. but it has to be said!

You're not useless, no dissapointmend or anything like that!
And we are always here for you!

Also feel free to dm me if you want to talk!

Keep your head up high in the meantime!
There is always light somewhere at the end of the tunnel!

-nuzzles-