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Got something difficult to explain (grieving moment)
3 years ago
So, as the title suggests, I'm gonna be taking today and grieving, while just relaxing at home...
I was so excited to stream with one of the friends I've known longest in my life, until I was delivered some devastating news.
And also as the title suggests, it's difficult to explain.
My longtime friend of 11 years, whom I will refer to as Omega, has dissociative identity disorder (a.k.a. DID, the P.C. term for multiple personality disorder). And without telling me or checking in on me, their mind went complete madness. The way their alter egos put it is this:
Think of my friend's mind as an airship, and they are the captain. All of their alters live together on the airship. Well... shit hit the fan and the airship suddenly split in two, barely holding on by threads.
The end result is that the mind of Omega has gone, and as their alters explained, they might not come out the same again. There may be semblances of them in the week and a half to 3 weeks it may take to repair them, but as they said, they undoubtedly won't be the same.
It's the most devastating loss of my life thus far... we did most everything together online... Played games, worked on many a project together, and we just started streaming a Pokemon Genlocke JUST THIS LAST SUNDAY...
And before the pandemic got REALLY bad, I actually went out to visit them for the first time since we had met... we were friends for almost 10 years by that point, and I took the initiative to fly out there and visit them. I even built their computer for them and all of their alters.
But now... he won't be the same friend I've known all this time... I already miss him...
Omega, or whoever comes out on the other side, if at all... I hope you will man the helm stronger than Omega did, and I hope we can still be friends once this is all over...
Rest in Peace, Omega... I loved you more than anybody else...
EDIT: this song puts my feelings into perspective... topical since it's on a Sunday...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KUCyjDOlnPU
I was so excited to stream with one of the friends I've known longest in my life, until I was delivered some devastating news.
And also as the title suggests, it's difficult to explain.
My longtime friend of 11 years, whom I will refer to as Omega, has dissociative identity disorder (a.k.a. DID, the P.C. term for multiple personality disorder). And without telling me or checking in on me, their mind went complete madness. The way their alter egos put it is this:
Think of my friend's mind as an airship, and they are the captain. All of their alters live together on the airship. Well... shit hit the fan and the airship suddenly split in two, barely holding on by threads.
The end result is that the mind of Omega has gone, and as their alters explained, they might not come out the same again. There may be semblances of them in the week and a half to 3 weeks it may take to repair them, but as they said, they undoubtedly won't be the same.
It's the most devastating loss of my life thus far... we did most everything together online... Played games, worked on many a project together, and we just started streaming a Pokemon Genlocke JUST THIS LAST SUNDAY...
And before the pandemic got REALLY bad, I actually went out to visit them for the first time since we had met... we were friends for almost 10 years by that point, and I took the initiative to fly out there and visit them. I even built their computer for them and all of their alters.
But now... he won't be the same friend I've known all this time... I already miss him...
Omega, or whoever comes out on the other side, if at all... I hope you will man the helm stronger than Omega did, and I hope we can still be friends once this is all over...
Rest in Peace, Omega... I loved you more than anybody else...
EDIT: this song puts my feelings into perspective... topical since it's on a Sunday...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KUCyjDOlnPU
Omega will always thanks you for being friends and having a good life with you.
am sure he will always be with you even he is spriti and am sure you will meet him again.
take your time ,bassman. and live on for him.
my friend who also have gone because of smile deperssion. i count him as my best friend and brother.
hugs the big typh
but i will be me.
healing yourself. you need it. take a long rest you needed.
my friend is alive when i always think of him cause my memory in my heart was there. am sure you mus keep memory of your best friend as well.
*hugs back the riolu*
your friend "omega" and i want you to keep moving a better even we not here anymore. your friend was now live in peace in other side and they also can build their room as well! dont you imagine it? he will be waiting for you there. so live on.
All of the memories with him will most certainly live on.
Thank you. :)
a best gift.
do something for him. keep streaming that pokemon genlock and make it until the end of that game. and after that tell him "you made it" and one final goodbye to him. but still he will visit you everyday. maybe in dream or well somwhere.
well he become star now.
looks after yourself and live a life happy.
just help your best friend one last stream.