So today me and the family have decided to have one of our dogs out to sleep. This hits me really hard because on top of the obvious reasons it's like things that bring me any joy or happiness keep getting taken from me. My girlfriend who I loved left me in 2020, earlier this year my dad died on my birthday, and now this. And these are just the big ones. I have had a lot of other things happen to me, and I'm just starting to loose hope. Like. when is life going to stop taking shit from me? I feel like the only reason I have any thing good happen any more is just so it hurts even more when it is inevitably ripped away from me. I want to be happy again, but I feel like some higher power is preventing me from ever being happy again.