So still not feel 100% atm and i feel a bit slower and shitty when it come to making art currently, so i think regrettably I'm gong to have to go and limit what I'm going to be doing for the rest of the year.


So I'm going to be limiting myself to working on about 6 commission a month for the rest of the year to give myself sometime to just feel better and start working back up to a better place and pace for work, as atm i just feel very tired frustrated and kind numb to things. like im just working for working sake and not doing anything that worthwhile or really pushing myself to create the best kind or art both erotic and sfw, it just work made to be work. The biggest thing i think that Iv always believed was giving me the most trouble was my need to put out a lot of stuff and do a LOT of commission every month, so far this year and it has helped me a lot as i have now set up a decent base group of peps who like my stuff and are willing to pay me for to draw for them and like my dumb nonsense that i draw myself (and Thank ya'll so much for that it super appreciated and i couldn't be able to do this and survive with out ya'll) but i still feel I'm not really making strive on truly balancing out my wants for my art and what is what i want to make money. as literally most of what i do is YCH/COM"S and then maybe a full single rendered pic here or there and lots of sketches that i draw when im going insane at 1 or 2AM. add to the fact my workaholism literally make me feel like i need to cry and freak the fuck out when im not sitting in my chair working when i try to read a book sometimes, ya i think it time to slow down a bit. So i probably wont be able to reach my minimum goal for my saving for the year (Thanks car problems and bills during that whole bit of maddness) but i still will be able to have about 3k and some ready and next year when i start doing more commission i wont really need to do what i had to do for most of this year since my prices and art are at a much better pace.


Big thing I'm hoping to maybe do once i feel better about drawing again is to get back to working on bullshit for my still embryonic webcomic as well as work on trying to improve my anatomy, use of perspective and environments and over all rendering style as while iv gotten really good at pose, coloring and design and have made a lot of improvements to my faces and expression over the year i have not made a lot of stride in the former that i would have liked too. so hopefully i can get time to noodle in on those and try out some bullshit to expand my understanding and skills on those aspects of my art.

plus i like to make some real weird symbolic and artsyfartys crap too, like some real esoteric this a piece of art made to described a feeling kind shit.




So hopefully once im back to 100 i be able to easily pop out both commission and some SFW art that not just cool mech stuff and make more consistent OG weird fun erotic artwork for everyone to be like "yooooo das some good horny shit , pass me the lotion." XD but ya sorry if thing have seemed a bit dull the past few months with my work and ych just really not been at my best.


I hope ya all also are working to give yourself a good breath if you can as well and try your best to not burn yourself out and like are doing what you can to give yourself some nice chill times to relax and idk just be chill and not stressed i guess. hope you all have a great month of spookyness and beyond.