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October State of Affairs
3 years ago
General
Hellooooo everyone. You may have noticed that my posting and such has been all over the place lately and I'd like to expand on why some of that is.
The bad stuff
This has been perhaps my toughest year so far. I've had my depression fully develop and I'm now on medication. I also didn't get into graduate school, and my recommenders told me they'd not give me more letters so that's my current struggle. On top of all that, my car was totaled and I lost my bags on a trip to Italy, so I've just been in the dumps. I had to move shortly after missing my graduation due to a covid infection, and I've been in a recovery state since then.
The good stuff
I was recently hired with an astrophysics lab. The work doesn't pay the best, but it's the most I've ever made. This has let me diversify my art projects and develop my style even more. I feel really confident with my art now, and I hope to make some really fun stuff for you all in the future. I've also been learning a lot about unity, and I've had some ideas in the works that may be pretty fun. I'm not in a great place yet, but I'm getting back to my norm and finding a way to get by.
What am I working on right now
Financial stability has given me a lot more room to experiment and try new things. I'm hoping to keep drawing monsters for this month of October, and I'll do some more themed stuff and interesting or longer form commissions in the future. I want to try to draw some new kinks and some sfw fantasy scenes as well. My focus for the moment is my health, though. I've started giving myself Saturdays off from work, I've been doing intermittent fasting and eating healthier, and I'm exercising more. Rapturous is going to remain on hiatus because of some programming issues and because I'm not vibing with the story after going through the last few difficult months. Instead I'm going to try to work on some other projects and get better at designing more complex games, like my little turn-based game. Commissions are going to be a little less structured for a while, too. I'm not taking as many because I want to do a bit more effort on each. Thanks for the support, as usual, folks.
The bad stuff
This has been perhaps my toughest year so far. I've had my depression fully develop and I'm now on medication. I also didn't get into graduate school, and my recommenders told me they'd not give me more letters so that's my current struggle. On top of all that, my car was totaled and I lost my bags on a trip to Italy, so I've just been in the dumps. I had to move shortly after missing my graduation due to a covid infection, and I've been in a recovery state since then.
The good stuff
I was recently hired with an astrophysics lab. The work doesn't pay the best, but it's the most I've ever made. This has let me diversify my art projects and develop my style even more. I feel really confident with my art now, and I hope to make some really fun stuff for you all in the future. I've also been learning a lot about unity, and I've had some ideas in the works that may be pretty fun. I'm not in a great place yet, but I'm getting back to my norm and finding a way to get by.
What am I working on right now
Financial stability has given me a lot more room to experiment and try new things. I'm hoping to keep drawing monsters for this month of October, and I'll do some more themed stuff and interesting or longer form commissions in the future. I want to try to draw some new kinks and some sfw fantasy scenes as well. My focus for the moment is my health, though. I've started giving myself Saturdays off from work, I've been doing intermittent fasting and eating healthier, and I'm exercising more. Rapturous is going to remain on hiatus because of some programming issues and because I'm not vibing with the story after going through the last few difficult months. Instead I'm going to try to work on some other projects and get better at designing more complex games, like my little turn-based game. Commissions are going to be a little less structured for a while, too. I'm not taking as many because I want to do a bit more effort on each. Thanks for the support, as usual, folks.
Hearing you having good in your life and getting some good work along with making personal strides in your health and art making you happy is somewhat relieving.
Looking forward to hearing more of how you’re doing and wishing your battles against depression to go well!
But sometimes all we can do is try to improve things day by day and keep trudging along.
Look forward to seeing your work going forwards!
But that's awesome that you've nevertheless been able to work in an environment that suits you and pays well, and I'm really happy that you have some time to get some personal artwork out of your system.
With how hard you've pushed yourself over the years, you deserve this time to balance yourself and fix your health. And what with your range of aptitude, there's just so much unexpected good that has yet to yet to fruit fully in your life that eventually will. But enough about the things unseen that can't be controlled; it seems you've done and are doing all you need to do to take care of yourself going forward.
Super happy for you for all you've grown in the past half decade and, as far as you've come as a person, it amounts to much more than the setbacks. Dk what else to say except thanks for taking care of yourself!
I'm going to keep doing my best and learning. The breadth of human experiences is wider than I thought, and I've learned a lot about myself and about how to live that I never considered. I'm going to try to keep my head held high.
However. I hope you feel better without depression some jobs do pay well and some jobs don't pay the best or well enough. And I hope you feel more healthy.
Also congrats on the financial stability. That's huge.