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3 years ago
Well - here I am again. It's been a really long time, my last activity was like 2 years ago. Time flies I guess, but regardless, sorry for being gone this long. I tried to get back into art and return to FA the last time I was here, but some events transpired shortly after that took me away from focusing on art. I also had some stuff posted by another person on this very profile which made me uncomfortable, but at this point, it's whatever.
While I won't go into the circumstances (nor do I feel like it's the right time to.. but mostly for security reasons) I've basically spent the last year of my life up until about 2-3 months ago completely miserable and traumatized. I isolated myself in favor of a situation that, ultimately, was very harmful to me. I eventually put my foot down to protect myself and ended the situation and have been in the process of healing ever since. Halfway through that year of misery, I attempted to draw again, and have made quite a few pieces that I just never uploaded.. maybe out of shame, embarrassment, and/or fear of coming back.
Things are much better for me now. I'm trying to improve my life and I have a much healthier support system now. I still have a lot of struggles but I feel so much more comfortable and happy. I'm doing everything I can to build healthier habits and avoid the things that hurt me. It sometimes feels like misfortune gets thrown at me one after another but I can't stay stuck in that forever, especially when I'm on a good streak.
I'll be uploading all the stuff I've done over this year and start posting new pieces too as I complete them. My art may come out slowly, but I am hoping that I can push myself out of my comfort zone with time. The biggest reason I hesitate to draw is because I'm heavily self critical and I spend too much time worrying about every little detail. But there's also the part of me that loves drawing adorable stuff and I don't want to let my self criticism hold me back anymore.
It's a bit scary for me to come back but I'm just going to remain hopeful that things will be smooth sailing from now on. I really appreciate you taking the time to read this (if you read this far) and I appreciate all of my followers that are still sticking around despite my inactivity.
Oh, as an additional note, I'll be posting a lot more general cutesy stuff and I've switched to another fursona (bunbun of course) for most of my art. She'll be posted quite a lot as I feel more emotionally connected to her, but I'll still draw Neo from time to time :'D
Thank you all and I look forward to being involved in this community again and sharing cuteness with the world ♡
While I won't go into the circumstances (nor do I feel like it's the right time to.. but mostly for security reasons) I've basically spent the last year of my life up until about 2-3 months ago completely miserable and traumatized. I isolated myself in favor of a situation that, ultimately, was very harmful to me. I eventually put my foot down to protect myself and ended the situation and have been in the process of healing ever since. Halfway through that year of misery, I attempted to draw again, and have made quite a few pieces that I just never uploaded.. maybe out of shame, embarrassment, and/or fear of coming back.
Things are much better for me now. I'm trying to improve my life and I have a much healthier support system now. I still have a lot of struggles but I feel so much more comfortable and happy. I'm doing everything I can to build healthier habits and avoid the things that hurt me. It sometimes feels like misfortune gets thrown at me one after another but I can't stay stuck in that forever, especially when I'm on a good streak.
I'll be uploading all the stuff I've done over this year and start posting new pieces too as I complete them. My art may come out slowly, but I am hoping that I can push myself out of my comfort zone with time. The biggest reason I hesitate to draw is because I'm heavily self critical and I spend too much time worrying about every little detail. But there's also the part of me that loves drawing adorable stuff and I don't want to let my self criticism hold me back anymore.
It's a bit scary for me to come back but I'm just going to remain hopeful that things will be smooth sailing from now on. I really appreciate you taking the time to read this (if you read this far) and I appreciate all of my followers that are still sticking around despite my inactivity.
Oh, as an additional note, I'll be posting a lot more general cutesy stuff and I've switched to another fursona (bunbun of course) for most of my art. She'll be posted quite a lot as I feel more emotionally connected to her, but I'll still draw Neo from time to time :'D
Thank you all and I look forward to being involved in this community again and sharing cuteness with the world ♡
It'll be a delight to see what you've been working on and what comes from the future as well!
Just a random thought, have you tried just doing messy sketches and doing minimal cleaning on them? I know it can be maddening if you're the type to despise something like that, but maybe it could be a good exercise for you to get out of your habit of wanting everything to be perfect? I'm no artist though so heck if I know if that's helpful or not :x