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3 years ago
TLDR: My health is unfortunately nowhere near good and I need to focus on that. I will only take a bit of work and mostly auction either slots or YCH/characters, since I will need to spend more time caring for myself. Thank you for understanding.
Warning: Health Issues.
So, this last year was the worst of my life. Started feeling my health get worse and worse and had a lot of loss to deal with.
Now, I worked for around 8 years now, every day, with mostly never a day off. I can count my vacation days on my hands in these years. And finally my health started to get to a point where I cannot ignore it anymore.
It started last year in November, where my eustachian tubes dysfunctioned and my tinnitus that was very mild so far got to an excruciating point that my mental health suffered a lot because of it. I am dealing with constant pressure on my ears, loud tinnitus in both, with the left ear reacting to every sound and heavy hyperacusis. It drained all my energy for a time. Still, worked through it. I visited 11 ENT doctors. Had to drive to Munich (850kms away) to get diagnosed by a specialist.
During that time I also started working on my jaw, which is not in the correct position. Almost all my teeth are ground down and the jaw is pressing heavily against the tissue next to my ear. I need a crown too. I will get a splint next week.
In April I decided to change my orthopedist, because the pain in my neck, from constantly sitting for more than 16 hours a day (I work around 10 hours every day at least), got so bad that I couldn't sleep anymore and the one I was with the last five years did nothing to even diagnose me. Turned out to be a herniated disc in my neck (c5/6) which brings me great pain and makes my hands numb almost every night.
In August my chronical gastritis started showing again. I puked for almost a month daily, until my throat bled. Currently it's gotten better, but it's still ongoing. During that I noticed that I hear a very loud pulsative tinnitus in that left ear and decided to go to a private neurologist. (I was visiting two normal ones and they belittled me for being paranoid)
Yesterday I got the result of ultrasound and Mri for the head. And both my main arteries in my head are constricted (stenosis) and I have to be operated for a dura fistula near my left temple. For the rest of my life I will have to monitor every risk factor for not getting a stroke.
I will get this done first. After that I will get my ears operated for the tube dysfunction. I am doing sports regularly. I am changing my diet. And I also have to change my life-work balance. Sitting and working for more than 10 hours a day without days off is not working anymore. I will do a hearing therapy for the hyperacusis. Most of all that, except the operations I paid and have to pay myself. That's why I still have to work. I paid around 8000€ (+ 350€ each month for insurance) this year extra for medical expenses. I am lucky still, because I know people are worse off in other countries, but that is a lot of money for me.
If I don't change things now I won't live until 50. Stress is also a giant factor for me. It's currently between "I have to work, else I cannot pay the expenses" and "I need time off. I need to move more, to work out, to relax" but juggling that is so hard for me right now.
That's why I decided that I need to change how I work, at least for a few months.
I will not take regular commissions for that time. You can approach me with ideas still, but I will be very picky with something I want and can take on. Mostly I will proclaim if a slot is open or auction slots off (like design work or ychs too).
I am sorry for people who want to commission me right now, who have to save for my already higher prices, but currently I just can't bring that service.
I do not want donations. i do not want alms. I still want to work for my life, but I have to work on being able to work first.
So, yeah... I will still be around and everything. But work will have to be only in more limited amounts.
I am not sure who reads all this, but anyway, thank you for sticking with me. I am thankful for the priviledge of working this job and I love it. And I want to do it in the future, so I have to take more care of myself.
I appreciate all of my followers and all the love you all give me.
Warning: Health Issues.
So, this last year was the worst of my life. Started feeling my health get worse and worse and had a lot of loss to deal with.
Now, I worked for around 8 years now, every day, with mostly never a day off. I can count my vacation days on my hands in these years. And finally my health started to get to a point where I cannot ignore it anymore.
It started last year in November, where my eustachian tubes dysfunctioned and my tinnitus that was very mild so far got to an excruciating point that my mental health suffered a lot because of it. I am dealing with constant pressure on my ears, loud tinnitus in both, with the left ear reacting to every sound and heavy hyperacusis. It drained all my energy for a time. Still, worked through it. I visited 11 ENT doctors. Had to drive to Munich (850kms away) to get diagnosed by a specialist.
During that time I also started working on my jaw, which is not in the correct position. Almost all my teeth are ground down and the jaw is pressing heavily against the tissue next to my ear. I need a crown too. I will get a splint next week.
In April I decided to change my orthopedist, because the pain in my neck, from constantly sitting for more than 16 hours a day (I work around 10 hours every day at least), got so bad that I couldn't sleep anymore and the one I was with the last five years did nothing to even diagnose me. Turned out to be a herniated disc in my neck (c5/6) which brings me great pain and makes my hands numb almost every night.
In August my chronical gastritis started showing again. I puked for almost a month daily, until my throat bled. Currently it's gotten better, but it's still ongoing. During that I noticed that I hear a very loud pulsative tinnitus in that left ear and decided to go to a private neurologist. (I was visiting two normal ones and they belittled me for being paranoid)
Yesterday I got the result of ultrasound and Mri for the head. And both my main arteries in my head are constricted (stenosis) and I have to be operated for a dura fistula near my left temple. For the rest of my life I will have to monitor every risk factor for not getting a stroke.
I will get this done first. After that I will get my ears operated for the tube dysfunction. I am doing sports regularly. I am changing my diet. And I also have to change my life-work balance. Sitting and working for more than 10 hours a day without days off is not working anymore. I will do a hearing therapy for the hyperacusis. Most of all that, except the operations I paid and have to pay myself. That's why I still have to work. I paid around 8000€ (+ 350€ each month for insurance) this year extra for medical expenses. I am lucky still, because I know people are worse off in other countries, but that is a lot of money for me.
If I don't change things now I won't live until 50. Stress is also a giant factor for me. It's currently between "I have to work, else I cannot pay the expenses" and "I need time off. I need to move more, to work out, to relax" but juggling that is so hard for me right now.
That's why I decided that I need to change how I work, at least for a few months.
I will not take regular commissions for that time. You can approach me with ideas still, but I will be very picky with something I want and can take on. Mostly I will proclaim if a slot is open or auction slots off (like design work or ychs too).
I am sorry for people who want to commission me right now, who have to save for my already higher prices, but currently I just can't bring that service.
I do not want donations. i do not want alms. I still want to work for my life, but I have to work on being able to work first.
So, yeah... I will still be around and everything. But work will have to be only in more limited amounts.
I am not sure who reads all this, but anyway, thank you for sticking with me. I am thankful for the priviledge of working this job and I love it. And I want to do it in the future, so I have to take more care of myself.
I appreciate all of my followers and all the love you all give me.
Thank you all so much for watching, favouriting and generally liking my art! I really appreciate your support!
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I wish you the very best with your recovery. They might have you on a baby aspirin or something if they're concerned about strokes. Sounds like the new guy knows his stuff, at least. Just be sure your surgeon knows if you're taking pain medication for the orthopedic work so they don't give you conflicting medications or something weird. ...sorry, you probably know that already. I've had... a lot of surgeries, so my instinct when I hear "procedure" is to prattle on. I get worried; don't mind me. They give you instructions. Biggest thing is have someone with you if it's (what I assume is) under general anesthesia or else they won't do the procedure since you need someone else to drive you home.
And maybe you could do, say, sketch commissions when you work? That way you could do something less intense than fully detailed and shaded pieces? It's just a thought for when you ease back into it. I'm broke and won't benefit from this suggestion myself so I'm not coming from a place of bias.
Again, sorry for being so wordy, and I hope everything goes well for you! If you ever want to sit and complain about bad doctors or talk medical issues, I'm here for it.