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Good news π€§π (finally)
3 years ago
βΆ Β° . .γγ.γ βΎ β β γ. * ΒΈ β .γγγβΆγΒ° :.γ . β’β β Β° β γ .γ β .γ . β β βΆβ γ . *γ.γ.γγΒΈ .βΆ Β° . .γγ.γ βΎ β β γ. γ
The last couple of months have been fucked up π€‘
It all started this summer and lasted until the end of September.
If you want to read all the episodes of my personal drama series,
then here are all the episodes.
β 1. "Parents" - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10292077/
β 2. "The calm before the storm" - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10298999/
β 3. "A breakup?" - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10325109/
β 4. "This is the end" - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10333396/
β 5. "Or the beginning?" - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10337653/
In short: it was very stressful. First problems with parents, then with
a boyfriend. I cried a lot of tears, and made a difficult decision,
but now life is getting better.
β- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
π What's new?
Today my mother wrote to me and said that she rented an apartment, and this
means that I will be able to return to my hometown. I cried when she told me
about it this morning Ρ": It was unexpected!
I've already come to terms with the idea that I'll celebrate a lonely birthday and
new year (because I'm not very close with my dad).
Here, in my dad's city, I put life on pause... I didn't see the point of going on dates
(more on that later, lol), looking for friends, because I knew I would leave this city
one day. But when?... Well, at least I've done a good job in these two months lol
I was in blind expectation, and today everything was solved as if by a snap of
fingers. I still can't believe it :"3
π About new dates...
Oh yes, it's only been 2 months, but I'm already thinking about a new relationship...
Why? It sounds crazy, but it turned out that I fell out of love with my ex while still
in a relationship....... yeah
Well. I've been depressed since last winter. I couldn't find an explanation for my
anxiety, constant tears and sadness, but it turned out that I was just with an unloved
person all this time. To understand this, it was necessary to be separated and come
back. That's fucked up.
God, I was so confused about my feelings! I felt warmth, gratitude, but the depth
of feelings evaporated. It wasn't love. It turned out to be very easy to confuse just
physical attraction and the desire to give love. This is crazy!!
β What helped me to sort myself out and find answers? β
Voice notes. I just poured out EVERYTHING that was in my head. And the more I
talked, the clearer everything became. I would compare it to psychotherapy,
but for free Ρ D
Now we don't communicate with my ex and I don't feel anything for him. I cried
when I deleted our photos, but they were just a tears of nostalgia and acceptance
of a new path.
β- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
Well, life is getting better. Finally. I bought tickets for December 1st. 9 hours in the
air and I'll be home. I'm a little worried, but the fear of the unknown speaks to me Ρ )
Everything will be fine. The main thing is to trust the world β¨πΎ
π What did I want to say!
First, thank you so much for your support π€§πYour comments under previous
journals gave me confidence and a feeling that I am not alone. It is very valuable
and I am very grateful
Secondly, I will rent an apartment in my hometown, so oh, yes, there is a lot of
work to be done. If you like my art style, I invite you to work together π
β¨ We can create something awesome for you or your friend like this:
- https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49434933/
- https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48818150/
Or you can buy one of the ready-made plots!
π Something magical - here and here
π©Έ Something dark - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10356200/
π Or something sexy! - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10384273/
I am full of inspiration and we can become a great team Ρ:
β- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
Well, now you know everything and I can go to bed with a pure heart, haha Ρ )
I wish you a good working week. Remember that no matter how difficult it is,
everything passes. This is life
βΆ Β° . .γγ.γ βΎ β β γ. * ΒΈ β .γγγβΆγΒ° :.γ . β’β β Β° β γ .γ β .γ . β β βΆβ γ . *γ.γ.γγΒΈ .βΆ Β° . .γγ.γ βΎ β β γ. γ
The last couple of months have been fucked up π€‘
It all started this summer and lasted until the end of September.
If you want to read all the episodes of my personal drama series,
then here are all the episodes.
β 1. "Parents" - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10292077/
β 2. "The calm before the storm" - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10298999/
β 3. "A breakup?" - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10325109/
β 4. "This is the end" - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10333396/
β 5. "Or the beginning?" - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10337653/
In short: it was very stressful. First problems with parents, then with
a boyfriend. I cried a lot of tears, and made a difficult decision,
but now life is getting better.
β- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
π What's new?
Today my mother wrote to me and said that she rented an apartment, and this
means that I will be able to return to my hometown. I cried when she told me
about it this morning Ρ": It was unexpected!
I've already come to terms with the idea that I'll celebrate a lonely birthday and
new year (because I'm not very close with my dad).
Here, in my dad's city, I put life on pause... I didn't see the point of going on dates
(more on that later, lol), looking for friends, because I knew I would leave this city
one day. But when?... Well, at least I've done a good job in these two months lol
I was in blind expectation, and today everything was solved as if by a snap of
fingers. I still can't believe it :"3
π About new dates...
Oh yes, it's only been 2 months, but I'm already thinking about a new relationship...
Why? It sounds crazy, but it turned out that I fell out of love with my ex while still
in a relationship....... yeah
Well. I've been depressed since last winter. I couldn't find an explanation for my
anxiety, constant tears and sadness, but it turned out that I was just with an unloved
person all this time. To understand this, it was necessary to be separated and come
back. That's fucked up.
God, I was so confused about my feelings! I felt warmth, gratitude, but the depth
of feelings evaporated. It wasn't love. It turned out to be very easy to confuse just
physical attraction and the desire to give love. This is crazy!!
β What helped me to sort myself out and find answers? β
Voice notes. I just poured out EVERYTHING that was in my head. And the more I
talked, the clearer everything became. I would compare it to psychotherapy,
but for free Ρ D
Now we don't communicate with my ex and I don't feel anything for him. I cried
when I deleted our photos, but they were just a tears of nostalgia and acceptance
of a new path.
β- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
Well, life is getting better. Finally. I bought tickets for December 1st. 9 hours in the
air and I'll be home. I'm a little worried, but the fear of the unknown speaks to me Ρ )
Everything will be fine. The main thing is to trust the world β¨πΎ
π What did I want to say!
First, thank you so much for your support π€§πYour comments under previous
journals gave me confidence and a feeling that I am not alone. It is very valuable
and I am very grateful
Secondly, I will rent an apartment in my hometown, so oh, yes, there is a lot of
work to be done. If you like my art style, I invite you to work together π
β¨ We can create something awesome for you or your friend like this:
- https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49434933/
- https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48818150/
Or you can buy one of the ready-made plots!
π Something magical - here and here
π©Έ Something dark - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10356200/
π Or something sexy! - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10384273/
I am full of inspiration and we can become a great team Ρ:
β- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
Well, now you know everything and I can go to bed with a pure heart, haha Ρ )
I wish you a good working week. Remember that no matter how difficult it is,
everything passes. This is life
βΆ Β° . .γγ.γ βΎ β β γ. * ΒΈ β .γγγβΆγΒ° :.γ . β’β β Β° β γ .γ β .γ . β β βΆβ γ . *γ.γ.γγΒΈ .βΆ Β° . .γγ.γ βΎ β β γ. γ
glad to hear that there is some good change
coming your way <3