I feel so empty.. but so very pissed off too. -_-

After almost two weeks of not seeing her, my dad found Freya laying dead under the old car in the back. I was laying here in bed half asleep, having just been woken up by some random somthing, and they told me so I was just like oh.. cuz I wasn't awake enough to have it hit me yet. Then when it actually did hit like maybe 5 min later I jumped up and put on some shoes and went outside. Well he had already put her in a hole and covered her with this tar paper stuff, saying it was just temporary until we could do somthing more permenate.

Well today I was going to do somthing more permenate for her, so when I got up I went outside and got a nice box out of my trunk and taped the bottom up nice and had a good bag to wrap it in after I put her in it to protect her once I put her in the ground. So I drove around back and dug a nice hole next to my room, so she'd still be close to me, and then I go and move the tar paper off the top of where he put her and I expected to see her, but nope, all I saw was dirt. They burried her, without asking me, next to that stupid old car. They didn't care enough to ask where I wanted to put her, or even if I wanted to help. They just did it themselves and it really just pisses me off. It's such a horrible place and she deserved better. Theres no way to get her out either because he's not sure where she starts and all that so we couldn't get her up without maybe hitting her and I don't wanna do that. So now my beloved angel, my sweetest cat, is burried next to a stupid old car, almost in the neighbors yard.

She was the sweetest animal I ever met. She'd listen to me when I talked to her, I'd sing to her and she'd purr at me. She loved me like no animal ever has. I hate she's gone, She meant so much to me and still does. I just.. I dunno what I wanna do. I hate this .. I hate it so much