I woke up to find that I had a letter in the mail today. After opening it, I discovered that, after all those tests I did a while back, and not hearing anything back from them about any of it since, that they have apparently determined that my health has improved, and that I no longer qualify for SSI. This is 100% inaccurate. I still have issues with my back and, not to mention, I JUST HAD BRAIN SURGERY LAST YEAR! How they can look at that and determine my health has improved is beyond me.

After reading that, came very close to an anxiety/panic attack. I didn't even read the whole letter at the time because of how freaked out it made me. I gave the letter to Henry and started freaking out. I really don't know what I'm going to do if I lose my SSI. The letter does state that I have ten days to call them to get this form I need to start the appeal process, though why they didn't send it with the letter is beyond me. I plan on calling them Monday morning to get that taken care of. From what Henry relayed to me, I won't lose my benefits during the time of the appeal process, but, if this doesn't work out well for me, I'm going to lose my SSI.

Henry and Steve have both said they aren't going to kick me out over this, and I 100% believe that, but my worry involves my other bills, specifically my cell phone and Hunter's monthly Banfield Wellness Plan bill along with his dog food. The phone I could live without, as annoying as it would be, but I would need to find some other way to come up with the money for Hunter's bill and food, because the alternative is giving him up and, given that he's an elder dog AND a member of my family, that's just not something I am willing to do.

I don't have to worry about that for at least sixty days beyond when I start the appeal, but the thought of losing my SSI, and not being able to take care of myself because my condition makes it hard to get a job terrifies me. Not only that, but, even if I COULD work, because of the area we live in, it's a 40 minute drive into town for any type of business I could even get a job at anyway, and another 40 minute drive back, which, since I can't even drive, ALSO means inconveniencing Henry, the only driver of the house, on top of everything else. So I'd likely lose any money I made on the job just in gas money to get to and from work. Henry gets Social Security, and Steve does stuff from home, so neither of them needs to leave the house for their incomes.

This terrifies me. I have roughly two months before I'll need to worry about it, but, if this doesn't get resolved, I'm going to lose my SSI and I'll have no way to take care of my personal stuff.