Nah...
Nah FUCK THIS IM DONE
IM DONE LOSING EVERYTHING
IM DONE NOT BEING IN CONTROL OF MY OWN HEAD
IM DONE WITH THE EXCUSES, im making a fucking change right here, im no longer going to be a FUCKING DISSAPOINTMENT, im organizing everything, and im finishing everything
Even if it means throwing my life away on this shit, straining my eyes, breaking my hands, sitting on my chair till im numb, im putting in this work! and none of you can FUCKING STOP ME, You may not see any personal work for a while, but fuck if i care, or if you even care
im not a dissapointment, im done fucking crying in front of a screen because im a fucking idiot who cant do shit right, FUCK THAT, IM NOT AN IDIOT, AND IM GONNA DO EVERYTHING I CAN TO MAKE SURE IM THE BEST I CAN BE, AND FUCK YOU IF YOU GET IN MY WAY!
i will be everything people say id never be
you can count on it, BACKLOG
keep your eyes peeled, Cuz youre up first, and im not letting you wait for me any longer
im done losing, even if i feel nothing anymore