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I do NOT justify what I think, feel, or create to anyone
3 years ago
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I want to make something clear in very direct words for today's cult of a society: I do NOT justify myself for what I think what I feel or what I create, especially not under pressure or under threat. I need no thought passport from and for anyone: I owe no information or explanation to any individual or platform or government, especially because some twisted minds think certain content has special meaning associated with remote harms in their paranoid minds. I can draw or render whatever perfectly normal or completely crazy thing I want if I feel like it, I can freely share what I think feel or make with whoever I want, I can be whoever I want and was born being... you own nobody and the rights to their mind, period.
I have no obligation to trust anybody I don't feel like trusting... particularly not anyone who's looking to take away my rights and freedom, especially corrupt oligarchs now playing the role of popes while hailed as saviors by the very people they're ripping off. I don't need to know or care how your mental triggers work: I don't have nor comprehend them, I can see an image of the most horrible stuff and just scroll past it. I respect that some don't work this way and are more affected by what they put their eyes on, until the moment their sensitivity threatens my right to exist as a being with individual thoughts and creative freedom: If one's "empathy" and diseased complex thinking spiral to the point of going crazed tyrant, it's time for some spirits to be crushed and desensitized in tears, because the rest of us aren't going to live in a hell of angry authoritarian children harassing us everywhere we go because some have too many feelings and can't keep it to themselves! At that point fuck feelings, you're gonna be made into a man sonny: Here's your ticket to Ukraine for treatment soldier, go shove your nose up a few dead bodies scattered on the streets till your empathic condition has been cured.
I'm sickened by the way complete strangers, including the owners of large services or politicians to the comedy of it all, address me as if they're my parents / brothers / children and entitled to my trust whereas I'm obliged to understand their culture. I'm sorry but what hole in the ground did those people crawl from and who the fuck are you? I don't even know you nor need to, at this point I actively don't want to nor want anything to do with your demented world! You think just because I exist I need to be in line with your choir and part of some fashion, be it far-left or far-right or any other woke trash I need to pick from the official lists of ideologies? I feel and believe only what I personally experienced, which was rather isolated from society and other people thank goodness for that! if you think using every direct or indirect method imaginable to endlessly harass and control and interrogate me is going to change that, you're upping what you see here every single time.
My only obligation in this shit world is to not practically and realistically harm others: No going out on the streets mugging or pick-pocketing folks to steal their belongings, no kidnapping punching stabbing shooting poisoning or creepily touching people, and as far as the internet goes no hacking of accounts or making bomb threats... the list goes on for similar common sense stuff. Those clearly justified things are the only actual obligations me and everyone else have: Beyond this we have zero! I'm not obliged to understand anyone's culture and whatever struggle for the "common good" (WTF) they feel I need to be involved in... in turn you aren't obliged to understand me, in fact I actively want people to not truly understand me as any info they have can be used against me by the enemy.
This is an issue of concept and principle, something I know few people these days have instead of wrongly thinking they do: I will be up in arms over it even if it's things I'm not into or downright dislike. Stuff like toddler / very young cub porn is in fact on that list, not to mention death or gore which fuck that shit: It's really not my thing if I'm being completely honest... yet I will defend it too to the death, because just as they can judge and attack those that like it so can their judgmental mind turn against me if the random paranoia already in their brain ever gets rewired, and I'm not gonna play around with monkey brains to find out how this shit works just so I can briefly imagine "maybe I won't be next on the list".
Thing is that the more people try to stop me or interrogate me over things I normally wouldn't even think about if I didn't hear them from others, the more it makes me want to create those things just to spite them. I'm starting to feel that if I don't make my art offensive toward whatever is in fashion today I'm wasting the effort, this doctrine shit actually pushed me into feeling like that. Which sucks because I wish I could at least just focus on what I truly like doing... but hey, if even thoughts are a weapon in some medieval ideological war to you, may as well mix them up and play along a bit!
To sum it up: If I feel like it I can draw swastika dick monsters wearing a "black face" yelling the holocaust never happened while fucking 7 babies and their parents at once: Don't look if you don't like it, none of your or the world's business ootherwise. Capiche?! Of course I likely won't draw that in particular as it's seriously not my thing, plus I don't want the simpletons thinking it must be something I truly believe if I made a drawing about it... that's just to say it is my right to create whatever insanity I'd want free of your hateful judgment.
Was going to talk about the shithole Patreon and more have been turning into, but I ended up writing this instead so best left for another time if still necessary. Just yeah; I've more than reached the end of my rope with whatever alien society is out there beyond my bedroom window... if there's no way we can let each other exist any longer, best I don't speculate.
I have no obligation to trust anybody I don't feel like trusting... particularly not anyone who's looking to take away my rights and freedom, especially corrupt oligarchs now playing the role of popes while hailed as saviors by the very people they're ripping off. I don't need to know or care how your mental triggers work: I don't have nor comprehend them, I can see an image of the most horrible stuff and just scroll past it. I respect that some don't work this way and are more affected by what they put their eyes on, until the moment their sensitivity threatens my right to exist as a being with individual thoughts and creative freedom: If one's "empathy" and diseased complex thinking spiral to the point of going crazed tyrant, it's time for some spirits to be crushed and desensitized in tears, because the rest of us aren't going to live in a hell of angry authoritarian children harassing us everywhere we go because some have too many feelings and can't keep it to themselves! At that point fuck feelings, you're gonna be made into a man sonny: Here's your ticket to Ukraine for treatment soldier, go shove your nose up a few dead bodies scattered on the streets till your empathic condition has been cured.
I'm sickened by the way complete strangers, including the owners of large services or politicians to the comedy of it all, address me as if they're my parents / brothers / children and entitled to my trust whereas I'm obliged to understand their culture. I'm sorry but what hole in the ground did those people crawl from and who the fuck are you? I don't even know you nor need to, at this point I actively don't want to nor want anything to do with your demented world! You think just because I exist I need to be in line with your choir and part of some fashion, be it far-left or far-right or any other woke trash I need to pick from the official lists of ideologies? I feel and believe only what I personally experienced, which was rather isolated from society and other people thank goodness for that! if you think using every direct or indirect method imaginable to endlessly harass and control and interrogate me is going to change that, you're upping what you see here every single time.
My only obligation in this shit world is to not practically and realistically harm others: No going out on the streets mugging or pick-pocketing folks to steal their belongings, no kidnapping punching stabbing shooting poisoning or creepily touching people, and as far as the internet goes no hacking of accounts or making bomb threats... the list goes on for similar common sense stuff. Those clearly justified things are the only actual obligations me and everyone else have: Beyond this we have zero! I'm not obliged to understand anyone's culture and whatever struggle for the "common good" (WTF) they feel I need to be involved in... in turn you aren't obliged to understand me, in fact I actively want people to not truly understand me as any info they have can be used against me by the enemy.
This is an issue of concept and principle, something I know few people these days have instead of wrongly thinking they do: I will be up in arms over it even if it's things I'm not into or downright dislike. Stuff like toddler / very young cub porn is in fact on that list, not to mention death or gore which fuck that shit: It's really not my thing if I'm being completely honest... yet I will defend it too to the death, because just as they can judge and attack those that like it so can their judgmental mind turn against me if the random paranoia already in their brain ever gets rewired, and I'm not gonna play around with monkey brains to find out how this shit works just so I can briefly imagine "maybe I won't be next on the list".
Thing is that the more people try to stop me or interrogate me over things I normally wouldn't even think about if I didn't hear them from others, the more it makes me want to create those things just to spite them. I'm starting to feel that if I don't make my art offensive toward whatever is in fashion today I'm wasting the effort, this doctrine shit actually pushed me into feeling like that. Which sucks because I wish I could at least just focus on what I truly like doing... but hey, if even thoughts are a weapon in some medieval ideological war to you, may as well mix them up and play along a bit!
To sum it up: If I feel like it I can draw swastika dick monsters wearing a "black face" yelling the holocaust never happened while fucking 7 babies and their parents at once: Don't look if you don't like it, none of your or the world's business ootherwise. Capiche?! Of course I likely won't draw that in particular as it's seriously not my thing, plus I don't want the simpletons thinking it must be something I truly believe if I made a drawing about it... that's just to say it is my right to create whatever insanity I'd want free of your hateful judgment.
Was going to talk about the shithole Patreon and more have been turning into, but I ended up writing this instead so best left for another time if still necessary. Just yeah; I've more than reached the end of my rope with whatever alien society is out there beyond my bedroom window... if there's no way we can let each other exist any longer, best I don't speculate.
Patreon announced they want to ban literally anything that in its sole discretion it considers too violent, essentially only art of nice sunshiny things will be allowed at all at this point. On top of that they're thinking of some age discrimination... sorry, age verification system... essentially stealing more data from people to make sure they're allowed to create only art society deems morally acceptable for people matching their technical criteria. If this ever happens I'm likely to quit Patreon, I do NOT show an art passport to prove to anyone I'm allowed to create whatever I want which is an universal right. Hope the site is destroyed at this point, it's become a place of pure evil like everything touched by mainstream "normality" these days.
I just pray to god there is no afterlife where I have to deal with these fucking troglodytes all over again.
The afterlife will probably be very different one way or another. Even if some end up in hell, I think even that might be a more honest place than this world, since at least little demons don't pretend to be chasing you around with pitchforks for your own good and because of how much they care for you.
ALSO TWITTER IS NOT!! REAL LIFE !!!!! Im saying that regardless and social media today FULL OF PURE EGO SHIT ITS ALL EGO AND SAME GOES CEO's EXECUTIVES AND CELEBS WHO GET PAID TO SAY THINGS that pretty much Anti Free Speech and Pretty Pro Communist and really they are Adult Children.
That being said, sure I enjoy mature content art on a site like this whether I enjoy Feral Reptile swallowing Mammal characters for Fun, danger or not. Or even seeing "Original Anthro characters" or feral making love or more sexual love scene which that would stay mature setting, which I would prefer the more Male and Female relationship for love stuff but you Gays can have your own characters making love its your choice but my god the state that are Society what their trying to force other families kids STOP that shit exposing them to that in a young age my God dude...
AND I should "NOT be Sorry" for what said! I cant be! Im just sick this Year and last 2 years are the Example of a "SOY"ciety! Like the all "Indoctrinated Beings" like your a Sheep at that point and your worried about a person buying a Social Media site Or previous President who's Not perfect and dont have to like, But who they got rid of with Racist Riots in the Summer and "Commie Virus" which is what I call it btw not to say there aren't weak people who need Care due Genetic Health problems sure but the lockdowns pretty much ruined the country and culture now. Were in weakest time with Beings out there and now my job I want to quit soon as we get into next year which I have new job Im looking at but
And now AI and Technology going too fast as were still trying to put out the fires ugh Im just want go back to time we weren't worried about any of this. ...
The thing about "exposing" kids to that stuff... it's hard for me to even know what I can fairly comment there. I don't think that's something you should go ahead and randomly throw into anyone's face, child or not... what I take an unforgiving issue with though is the opposite: The brutal repression of young people against their own will, including trying to erase their thoughts by force, under the guise that any NSFW thoughts at that age makes you an anomaly that needs to be tied up and put in for treatment. No they don't tell you that directly, but at least when I was a teen that's what I understood and how I lived over it in the later part of my life... it was the first step in ruining my life and making me a super antisocial bastard. The extremism I see over some completely harmless things, where yes I do classify porn especially art... how can a world be this demented and treat you like such garbage over your biological age just because you watch something completely normal for anyone?! I'm sorry if my sickness with this sort of thing made me misunderstand some actually dark things in the past and comment on them inaccurately, I know actual kids shouldn't be going around actually doing certain real things physically... this puritan extremism and child protection paranoia though, that so needs to go to hell it's not even funny!
I made a journal with my thoughts on the AI stuff. I don't believe it's real, not as presented anyway. So called art generators likely use a sprite database (2D) or 3D models, with keywords to pose or blend them in order. Actually pretty neat concept, wanted to create something like that myself someday... they shouldn't be presenting it as human minds in the bodies of computers though, or insinuating there's some magical understanding of content from pixels which isn't possible to achieve with conventional code.
Subscribestar.
Honestly amazed you haven't quit patreon by now
Also, really wish I could add journals to favorites, this one would be at the top
I only haven't quit due to our precarious financial situation: I have more peace of mind knowing I'm doing everything I can so me and my mother don't run out of the little money we have left. Having to keep it updated out of obligation is a added mental stress, that's part of the reason I can't have a job. If Patreon pushes it and starts coming after me it will surely end, if it's them crossing the line and doing it I can't tell myself I gave up too easily.