I'm happy to say after a long time away I'm feeling confident again in taking commissions. I got myself a new tablet and new set up and things have kinda settled down for now. While I am still learning my new tablet it's already feeling nicer to use and I think will help me improve my art over time. I've completed one commission with it already but continue to doodle and draw personal art on it sometimes all day lol. It's been pretty nice.

Long version is last December I left an abusive relationship and that person then decided to trash my apartment and stole a lot of my stuff. I didnt handle this well and a mistake was made which I regret, but I got help for it and am now in a much better place.

I got some of the more expensive things back but even just that took police so everything else was just a write off. I was basically starting over with very little and slowly working to get back to where I was.

I ended up buying a place a few months later and of course a bunch of stuff went wrong and dealing with that plus trying to get back on my feet left very little time or motivation for art and to be honest I fell into a deep depression for most of the year and developed a stomach ulcer from stress.

I won't delve into the specifics of that depression here but it definitely took me out for awhile but after a lot of time to rest and pick myself back up I feel more and more like my old self every day and have made a lot of strides in my personal life to get back to where I was, and that includes art.

I had probably the worst art block I've ever had. Nothing came out looking good and on top of that my computer space area was very cramped and the pc so old it could barely run anymore so even turning it on was stressful. All this just made art feel like a chore instead of a release or hobby.

Truth is I love doing art for people, even porn. To create something and be appreciated for it gives me a lot of pride. And now with my new set up I can get back to that and that feeling of pride and accomplishment will also help me in my personal mental recovery. And the bit of extra money helps me out a lot in my every day life.

Thanks so much for those that stayed watched to me and the few people I let down on some later commissions I just was unable to get to due to the circumstances. They have been repaid but I never wanted to be an artist that didn't come through for people. But luckily those affected were more than kind.

Hopefully you'll see a lot more of me. :3

-Vail