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Wishing Everyone a Merry Christmas Tomorrow.
2 years ago
I know I'm making this post super late tonight. But I have to say it.
And as of right now, my mind hasn't been at ease. I think I have high-blood pressure. My head is hurting, my health hasn't been as well as I wanted it. And this year has just felt draining... I won't say it outright sucked, but there were some things that did piss me off this year.
- My car is undrivable right now (fuel system is messed up)
- Somehow I wasn't able to pass English, fucking English teacher wasting my time with those Tests/Quizzes.
- Living with my folks is still a hassle
- Plenty of people and pets that we knew died this year
- Me still sucking at budgeting my money
- And me not getting the chance to buy presents this year.
I Just feel like crap this year, like nothing is getting better. It might be the Winter climate making me feel this way, but whatever the case. I'm just glad to still be alive. As much as I feel depressed or hate myself, its not a feeling I was to embrace 24/7. Life sucks, but I want to die on my own terms, And I choose to live through it. I want to see what comes next. The world might face a horrifying truth some day, but I don't care. I just want to live my life all the way to the bitter end, as I see fit. And so should everyone else. Bad days and years only come around once in a blue moon.
Take in the world at your own pace, try to be happy, live happy. And know that new things will come. Here's to 2023! :)
And as of right now, my mind hasn't been at ease. I think I have high-blood pressure. My head is hurting, my health hasn't been as well as I wanted it. And this year has just felt draining... I won't say it outright sucked, but there were some things that did piss me off this year.
- My car is undrivable right now (fuel system is messed up)
- Somehow I wasn't able to pass English, fucking English teacher wasting my time with those Tests/Quizzes.
- Living with my folks is still a hassle
- Plenty of people and pets that we knew died this year
- Me still sucking at budgeting my money
- And me not getting the chance to buy presents this year.
I Just feel like crap this year, like nothing is getting better. It might be the Winter climate making me feel this way, but whatever the case. I'm just glad to still be alive. As much as I feel depressed or hate myself, its not a feeling I was to embrace 24/7. Life sucks, but I want to die on my own terms, And I choose to live through it. I want to see what comes next. The world might face a horrifying truth some day, but I don't care. I just want to live my life all the way to the bitter end, as I see fit. And so should everyone else. Bad days and years only come around once in a blue moon.
Take in the world at your own pace, try to be happy, live happy. And know that new things will come. Here's to 2023! :)
You have a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year too.
Seasonal depression is a thing tho, I have a sun lamp that pumps out the same, but weaker uv/ir wavelengths. My aunt does the same, and she mad a cheap-ish lamp out of fluorescent grow bulbs. I think you may be able to find LED bulbs for that will fit in a regular lamp for cheap, I got 3 for $10 online, you may be able to find singles for less, local or otherwise. Just don't sit too close, I don't want to find out from anyone that you can get a bad tan :p
Happy holidays, new year, and to a less bumpy 23!