I hate the fact that there are people i hang out with and consider friends that, if they ever found out i was ABDL, would cease all contact with me. And i don't mean people that are abusive, manipulative, or toxic. I mean people that genuinely bring me happiness in my seas of sorrow. Btw, for those that know me well enough, i do not mean anyone i live with. 2 of them already know and the 3rd isn't the type who'd care. He'd judge me but wouldn't care.

And honestly i know I'm not actually friends with them. I just hate thinking that one day the specific people will stumble upon my FA and suddenly I'll be blocked by them on everything. It keeps me anxious, even if i think i have enough rapport with them that they'd maybe change their view. For all intensive purposes i believe myself to be a fairly chill and cool guy, even if half the time I'm buggin' out cause i said something lightly rude 20 minutes ago and am expecting someone to tell at me later in a private setting. I'm fairly certain i have RSD [Rejection sensitive dysphoria] ). Why do people have to be so unwilling to hear another person's side nowadays?