all right well it's been that whole thing man i'm just thinking about it constantly i've been sitting here and you get through it it's almost like a three-day cycle i feel like i'm going through there's like three days where i feel like i'm doing ok and everything's all right and here's three days where i'm like holy shit how did i ever feel anything but this it's like just despondent apathy but then for the sake of family for the sake of friends for the sake of a career you gotta pull it together and you do and you know why cuz we're adults and this is just a reality we can't just cry foul about these things it's just simply what it is and all you'd like to do and you do especially when it's dark by like 3pm but I think ultimately what we're trying to do ultimately ultimately ultimately say ultimately again I dare you motherfucker say ultimately one more time ultimately it's about LOVE ❤️