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Dealing with loss...
2 years ago
Howdy everyone,
Just a small sort of update and even personal vent. In case I end up getting behind on work/projects. I don't expect to--and will try my hardest not to--but always prefer to be transparent.
Last week the barn where I train suffered the loss of two different animals... This is a warning in advance as I'll be (minorly) discussing death and other sort of 'depressing' topics etc so please feel free to discontinue reading if this is a difficult time for you too. I'd rather you keep happy and healthy over reading my big sad lol
One of them was a older horse who was likely in his 30s, from what we understood, and arrived very thin and not well-tended to. Covered in ticks, mud, and underweight. The months following he made improvements and was dearly loved by everyone (he would lean his head out of the stall to get chin scratches š„ŗ) His condition started to take another turn earlier this week, however, and he had a difficult time standing/walking. he was breathing heavily without doing much. The vet was called and through a process, they determined his heart was struggling/failing. He was put to sleep quietly and his pasture friends were allowed to say goodbye... His name was Rich, and he was a very, very good boy... I didn't know him terribly long, but it never gets any easier seeing these intelligent, sensitive and wonderful animals struggle with the fear of their dwindling circumstance. Or the sudden onset, as was the case with dear Percy...
To add to the sadness, I discovered one of the barn cats inside a stall today between morning and afternoon chores, after he had passed away unexpectedly. We don't know what happened to him exactly but it was a terribly disheartening sight... He was alone and we didn't even have the opportunity to help him... His name was Orion and he was one of the cutest cats. So smart, and an excellent hunter, he often caught mice and was always so entertaining to watch.
These losses both occurring while my brother has been rather sick in bed (and I have been caring for him) Meanwhile the world around us just seems to be in a cycle of finding hope, then falling apart... It's been difficult to remain composed when the realization of just how short life is keeps surfacing. I'll avoid delving deep into this aspect, as it's personal but has been making work a bit difficult to focus on.
Please, give your loved ones and pets extra hugs, if you haven't already. Take care of yourselves, know you're always worth it, and loved, and deserving and thank you for reading.
Just a small sort of update and even personal vent. In case I end up getting behind on work/projects. I don't expect to--and will try my hardest not to--but always prefer to be transparent.
Last week the barn where I train suffered the loss of two different animals... This is a warning in advance as I'll be (minorly) discussing death and other sort of 'depressing' topics etc so please feel free to discontinue reading if this is a difficult time for you too. I'd rather you keep happy and healthy over reading my big sad lol
One of them was a older horse who was likely in his 30s, from what we understood, and arrived very thin and not well-tended to. Covered in ticks, mud, and underweight. The months following he made improvements and was dearly loved by everyone (he would lean his head out of the stall to get chin scratches š„ŗ) His condition started to take another turn earlier this week, however, and he had a difficult time standing/walking. he was breathing heavily without doing much. The vet was called and through a process, they determined his heart was struggling/failing. He was put to sleep quietly and his pasture friends were allowed to say goodbye... His name was Rich, and he was a very, very good boy... I didn't know him terribly long, but it never gets any easier seeing these intelligent, sensitive and wonderful animals struggle with the fear of their dwindling circumstance. Or the sudden onset, as was the case with dear Percy...
To add to the sadness, I discovered one of the barn cats inside a stall today between morning and afternoon chores, after he had passed away unexpectedly. We don't know what happened to him exactly but it was a terribly disheartening sight... He was alone and we didn't even have the opportunity to help him... His name was Orion and he was one of the cutest cats. So smart, and an excellent hunter, he often caught mice and was always so entertaining to watch.
These losses both occurring while my brother has been rather sick in bed (and I have been caring for him) Meanwhile the world around us just seems to be in a cycle of finding hope, then falling apart... It's been difficult to remain composed when the realization of just how short life is keeps surfacing. I'll avoid delving deep into this aspect, as it's personal but has been making work a bit difficult to focus on.
Please, give your loved ones and pets extra hugs, if you haven't already. Take care of yourselves, know you're always worth it, and loved, and deserving and thank you for reading.
My condolences, things will improve, but if you need time to grieve, please do so. Please care of yourself, both physically and mentally.
Thank you for sharing this also. Makes me feel less silly or alone on it. š§”
You are not alone, you never will be, and through the pain we will all come out, together.
Thank you though for the thoughtful, kind words š§” I am so appreciative to hear it q_q
Love your friends and family yall, tell them you love them and do nice things for them. Once they're gone, they're gone.
I hope you are healing from your own loss š§”
I hope your pain turns to gentle fond memories.
I'll never forget any of them and thankfully my friends at the barn and I have been able to share laughs when remembering their various quirks and behaviors, which helps.
Thank you for the kind words š§”
wishing the best for you, sorry for your losses ā¤ļø
Thank you for the kind words. I am wishing you good and wonderful things also š§”
I know the feeling of its burden, when someone has passed away. It's a hardship to go through that needs to be endure all their lives, but no one is ever truly gone. Take your moment you need!āØ
Coming to the conclusion that bones serve as a sort of "book" of their lives... That tell stories of how they lived and it made me feel better, knowing they're laid to rest somewhere out there and may tell a story one day.
Thank you for the kind words and being so understanding. š§” I hope you have also found healing for any losses you endured too š§”
That's really fascinating, by the way. Paleontology has magnificent facts, when people doing a lot of research through bones and other various of past animal's life!
Also, I have found my way of healing to endure! āØšāØ
I thank you for the kind words and he's (thankfully) slowly on the mend š§” Hoping I can avoid getting sick with whatever he had, as that would certainly make matters worse.