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Sort of an update, and a little venting
2 years ago
Unfortunately, this is an update about how little there is to update. I'm still dealing with a bunch of private, personal stuff I can't talk about and the combination of technical issues and emotional/mental toll it's caused has me behind on some things and treading water on the rest. As I've said before, I'm aware that in the past I've been really bad about bottling up my issues and being openly vague about things bothering me, and I assure you this isn't that. I want to be more open about my emotional state and what's causing it, but the decision is largely out of my hands at the moment.
Getting back to the matter at hand, the aforementioned Stuff has made long-term planning extremely difficult, and that sort of uncertainty (in addition to being stressful on its own) discourages me from starting anything new. Creatively, all I can bring myself to do is focus on finishing current projects, occasionally poke at something I started a while ago that might go nowhere, or do prep for my weekly Exalted game.
That's a really long way of saying there's nothing new to report regarding story progress -- still trying to finish Conversion, and I always seem to be one or two writing sessions away but either they're less fruitful than I'd like or they're interrupted or something else. After that will come a revised version of Let Sleeping Foxes Lie. Maybe after that I'll get back into Song in the Dark.
Speaking of which, I'm still looking for feedback on the notion of a name change for the Conversion setting. I've asked multiple times in multiple places and gotten nothing, as is often the case when I put a question to my followers. And I know people are seeing my posts, because I do get replies when I follow up such a post/tweet/link with an unrelated joke or a comment. But that's about it.
I'm not saying this to try and guilt or harangue anyone. I don't want this to be one of those posts. But when I metaphorically corner people to talk to them about this, either they've been assuming I'm getting feedback elsewhere or in private (which almost never happens, even when I ask for it), or they assume their feedback wouldn't be useful because they haven't read my work or they don't think they're 'qualified.'
Thing is, I know my stuff is really niche so I don't expect there to be much general interest. But in general, and in this case in particular, any feedback or suggestions are good and valid, whether it's a vague thought from someone who hasn't read the story, to a detailed diagram explaining in scientific terms what I should do from someone who knows my writing better than I do.
This post has gone on much longer than I meant it to, and I'm going to cut it off before it gets any worse. Just... I'm not in a good emotional situation. I can't talk about half of what's weighing me down, and so few people seem to care about the stuff I can talk about. Normally I'd try to lose myself in a writing project, but right now in particular that feels more and more pointless. But for lack of any better options, I'm just gonna try to push through and get stuff finished.
Thank you all for your patience, not just for these last few months but to be frank the last few years. Take care of each other.
Edit: I fell so deep into feeling sorry for myself I forgot to share this -- I've put together a page on my blog with links to my published fiction. You can find that here.
Getting back to the matter at hand, the aforementioned Stuff has made long-term planning extremely difficult, and that sort of uncertainty (in addition to being stressful on its own) discourages me from starting anything new. Creatively, all I can bring myself to do is focus on finishing current projects, occasionally poke at something I started a while ago that might go nowhere, or do prep for my weekly Exalted game.
That's a really long way of saying there's nothing new to report regarding story progress -- still trying to finish Conversion, and I always seem to be one or two writing sessions away but either they're less fruitful than I'd like or they're interrupted or something else. After that will come a revised version of Let Sleeping Foxes Lie. Maybe after that I'll get back into Song in the Dark.
Speaking of which, I'm still looking for feedback on the notion of a name change for the Conversion setting. I've asked multiple times in multiple places and gotten nothing, as is often the case when I put a question to my followers. And I know people are seeing my posts, because I do get replies when I follow up such a post/tweet/link with an unrelated joke or a comment. But that's about it.
I'm not saying this to try and guilt or harangue anyone. I don't want this to be one of those posts. But when I metaphorically corner people to talk to them about this, either they've been assuming I'm getting feedback elsewhere or in private (which almost never happens, even when I ask for it), or they assume their feedback wouldn't be useful because they haven't read my work or they don't think they're 'qualified.'
Thing is, I know my stuff is really niche so I don't expect there to be much general interest. But in general, and in this case in particular, any feedback or suggestions are good and valid, whether it's a vague thought from someone who hasn't read the story, to a detailed diagram explaining in scientific terms what I should do from someone who knows my writing better than I do.
This post has gone on much longer than I meant it to, and I'm going to cut it off before it gets any worse. Just... I'm not in a good emotional situation. I can't talk about half of what's weighing me down, and so few people seem to care about the stuff I can talk about. Normally I'd try to lose myself in a writing project, but right now in particular that feels more and more pointless. But for lack of any better options, I'm just gonna try to push through and get stuff finished.
Thank you all for your patience, not just for these last few months but to be frank the last few years. Take care of each other.
Edit: I fell so deep into feeling sorry for myself I forgot to share this -- I've put together a page on my blog with links to my published fiction. You can find that here.
