I feel like I've done so much wrong in my furry life in the last three years that figuring out the next step to make things right is the tough part. I have continually bought art for Venor, but I have reached the point that I have no clue about what Venor is, anymore. I always feel like I make acquaintances and then, after they're done with me, I just am off on my own again. It's part of the reason I'm stepping off F-list again as I just am looking for more permanence in my friends and less RPing that leads to nothing but a few seconds of a good time.

I think I hit this realization trying to just think what I want to get. The truth is, I need no more art. I have all that I need, and I still need to post it all, as I haven't done any stories for any of it, and I know that any story I write will just be words that mean nothing. The truth is, the only way to chat with some people is to show them art and then they'll talk to me again for a while, and then they fade.

I really don't know what the next step is going to be, but for now, I'm just going to pretend that I'm just starting back to ground zero. I might rewrite Venor a bit, I'm not sure. I do know that he'll still have his athletic form and he's still a red furred white tiger, but, trying to find the right way to present him in the future will be my goal. I think, due to having so many interests, that I've just floated around the fandom, but not able to grasp at any big friends.

I dunno, I could just be writing gibberish. I do know I want things to feel like they're going the right direction. Trying to get off the computer more, get away from social media, work on things, avoid being envious of what others have. I feel it will be a long process. We'll see where it goes from here.

Also, if people feel like I've let them go instead of the other way around, please reach out. I would like to right the wrongs I have done here and makes things a little better.