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2 years ago
Before you read any further, please know that this is going to be a little angry, maybe a little whiny, but I need to vent. Just fair warning.
I'm angry, bored and frustrated with my life right now. Granted things are better than they were a year or more ago but still... I'm currently working a dead end factory job that I used to like, but things are systematically getting shittier. The head of Manufacturing is an incredible fucking dickhead that demands the impossible. He wants us to do 400 parts a night when we're lucky to even get 200 parts a night. And when I get home, I'm so drained physically and emotionally, I don't want to do anything. That's why you haven't seen much art from me lately. My new hobby of playing guitar is suffering as well. I haven't touched my guitars in over a month. I have a Fender Stratocaster sitting there gathering dust. Yeah, the money is decent, but I have little to no free time.
And my family is less than supportive of my creative endeavors. Honestly they never really have been. All my life I feel like I've only been doing what they want me to do, never what I want to do. Maybe they don't think I'm talented enough, and maybe I'm not, but that's not the point. I feel like my wings were clipped and I was pushed out of the nest and expected to fly.
I just wish I had some way of paying my bills without being stuck in a dull, gray factory for 8 hours four or five days a week and I could work on creative projects without worry. But then again, don't we all?
I'm just mad, disappointed and frustrated with my life right now. This is bullshit. I'd give anything to just be able to write, draw and strum and get paid for that instead.
FML
Have a great day.
I'm angry, bored and frustrated with my life right now. Granted things are better than they were a year or more ago but still... I'm currently working a dead end factory job that I used to like, but things are systematically getting shittier. The head of Manufacturing is an incredible fucking dickhead that demands the impossible. He wants us to do 400 parts a night when we're lucky to even get 200 parts a night. And when I get home, I'm so drained physically and emotionally, I don't want to do anything. That's why you haven't seen much art from me lately. My new hobby of playing guitar is suffering as well. I haven't touched my guitars in over a month. I have a Fender Stratocaster sitting there gathering dust. Yeah, the money is decent, but I have little to no free time.
And my family is less than supportive of my creative endeavors. Honestly they never really have been. All my life I feel like I've only been doing what they want me to do, never what I want to do. Maybe they don't think I'm talented enough, and maybe I'm not, but that's not the point. I feel like my wings were clipped and I was pushed out of the nest and expected to fly.
I just wish I had some way of paying my bills without being stuck in a dull, gray factory for 8 hours four or five days a week and I could work on creative projects without worry. But then again, don't we all?
I'm just mad, disappointed and frustrated with my life right now. This is bullshit. I'd give anything to just be able to write, draw and strum and get paid for that instead.
FML
Have a great day.
Hobbies keep me going when work is shitty. But, either you have the time and no money, or you have the money but no time.
Perhaps a change is in order?