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2 years ago
Hello folks, yeah, it's been months since I uploaded something and I must say what is going on, what happened to me.
Yes, I've been working on commissions, but unfortunately this process has been slowly due sadly, mental health and catastrophic situations.
I'm not going well, last months of 2022 and these new year's months got me in serious damaged mental health. Let me write up a list of things that happened.
- I addressed a harassment case towards me. Outside latex stuff, I'm a vtuber, a lewd/SFW vtuber (only mutuals know).
- Been suffering depression in a critical way: suicidal thoughts and selfharm around.
- Got covid for first time, fucking yikes.
- Depression continued kicking me on my tits.
- Suicidal moments.
And the two sweet cherries on top, my boyfriend decided break up, someone I considered important in my life and after a year and literally 3 months of relationship fucked up. LAST THURSDAY. And yesterday my mom ended up knowing that I was groomed, and the people who abused me got nudes of a 17yr old me (I'm 20 nowadays) in 2020.
Sincerely I don't know how I feel, beaten, tired, but yes, I am still working, I am going to finish all my commissions, I'm deeply sorry for being late. I didn't want this to happen.
Sincerely sorry, Choco.
Yes, I've been working on commissions, but unfortunately this process has been slowly due sadly, mental health and catastrophic situations.
I'm not going well, last months of 2022 and these new year's months got me in serious damaged mental health. Let me write up a list of things that happened.
- I addressed a harassment case towards me. Outside latex stuff, I'm a vtuber, a lewd/SFW vtuber (only mutuals know).
- Been suffering depression in a critical way: suicidal thoughts and selfharm around.
- Got covid for first time, fucking yikes.
- Depression continued kicking me on my tits.
- Suicidal moments.
And the two sweet cherries on top, my boyfriend decided break up, someone I considered important in my life and after a year and literally 3 months of relationship fucked up. LAST THURSDAY. And yesterday my mom ended up knowing that I was groomed, and the people who abused me got nudes of a 17yr old me (I'm 20 nowadays) in 2020.
Sincerely I don't know how I feel, beaten, tired, but yes, I am still working, I am going to finish all my commissions, I'm deeply sorry for being late. I didn't want this to happen.
Sincerely sorry, Choco.
Though I'm only a stranger on the internet, know that I wish you better times in the near future! In the meantime, may you have good moments of respite to catch your breath in. Try to take those breathers whenever you can, as best you can. Preserving your stamina, emotional and mental as much as physical, is paramount in weathering hard times.
I don't know much about your life, so I shouldn't offer much in way of advice. Instead, please accept these distant encouragements from me, on behalf of the community. Though impersonally from afar, we care about you, and I'm certain that for every one who speaks up, there are hundreds that would offer you a kindness were they presented the opportunity. Stay strong.