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2 years ago
I don't feel well, this week's definition, in addition to disappointment, discouragement is procrastination: I couldn't do the most basic things, from following a diet, going to the gym or even doing the laundry at home...
On Tuesday I had an appointment with the psychiatrist to deliver the ADHD and autism report and she will need a ''second opinion'' to see if she will consider my autism as "official" because in these almost 1 year and a half of treatment with her I did not "present any explicit symptoms of this disorder" [being that my neuropsychologist fought with me because in 23 years of life I always camouflaged these characteristics] and now it is harming my interaction and coexistence in general, so until she has a second opinion, I will not be able to seek my rights in court until she "made TEA official": as for ADHD [which I got right] she prescribed me another medicine on my list: Ritalin..
Now I use 4 drugs, 2 of which are prescription drugs [meaning if I don't take responsibility, I can become addicted]... and as if things couldn't get worse, one of the prescription drugs is out of stock in my country.. .
Honestly, I don't know how to be optimistic by doping myself with medicines, paying dearly for them and basic things and having the initiative to do the things I need, after all, if I don't do it, no one will do it for me
I couldn't work on pending arts this week and I feel like a bad artist
I feel like giving up seeing that my efforts are coming to nothing
I don't want to make art while I'm like this, it's not fair to you customers not to have good art because I'm not well [That's why I made a session in my Tos talking about the basics about me and my behavior]
Unfortunately I can't work automatically
I depend on my emotional and mood and I try to bring my best
but now i can't do the bare minimum
[Anything I'll refund arts I didn't start]
I'll be off slow dm for a few days waiting for this bad weather to pass
Saturday I'm going to my grandmother's house to spend time with her, maybe being close to people I love will help me
Maybe make some adoptables to cheer me up [not sure]
Anyway, just wanted to vent a little bit.
I'm trying to get out of this
On Tuesday I had an appointment with the psychiatrist to deliver the ADHD and autism report and she will need a ''second opinion'' to see if she will consider my autism as "official" because in these almost 1 year and a half of treatment with her I did not "present any explicit symptoms of this disorder" [being that my neuropsychologist fought with me because in 23 years of life I always camouflaged these characteristics] and now it is harming my interaction and coexistence in general, so until she has a second opinion, I will not be able to seek my rights in court until she "made TEA official": as for ADHD [which I got right] she prescribed me another medicine on my list: Ritalin..
Now I use 4 drugs, 2 of which are prescription drugs [meaning if I don't take responsibility, I can become addicted]... and as if things couldn't get worse, one of the prescription drugs is out of stock in my country.. .
Honestly, I don't know how to be optimistic by doping myself with medicines, paying dearly for them and basic things and having the initiative to do the things I need, after all, if I don't do it, no one will do it for me
I couldn't work on pending arts this week and I feel like a bad artist
I feel like giving up seeing that my efforts are coming to nothing
I don't want to make art while I'm like this, it's not fair to you customers not to have good art because I'm not well [That's why I made a session in my Tos talking about the basics about me and my behavior]
Unfortunately I can't work automatically
I depend on my emotional and mood and I try to bring my best
but now i can't do the bare minimum
[Anything I'll refund arts I didn't start]
I'll be off slow dm for a few days waiting for this bad weather to pass
Saturday I'm going to my grandmother's house to spend time with her, maybe being close to people I love will help me
Maybe make some adoptables to cheer me up [not sure]
Anyway, just wanted to vent a little bit.
I'm trying to get out of this
The_Altoholic
~thealtoholic
Hey, I just want you to know that I really do love and appreciate the work that you do here and the piece that I have commissioned from you myself. I really do hope that your medical professionals are able to truly get to the bottom of your aliment and that you will be able to get some of the medication that is out of stock. Even outside of the art that I do get from you, I'm always more than happy to just talk or chat. Best wishes to you, my friend! <3
tiptop88
~tiptop88
Thank you for sharing. Enjoy your time with your grandmother
