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The Fourth Decade
2 years ago
Yup, hit the big 40 today.
I don't plan on it being a big deal, but looking back on when I turned 30, quite a lot happened. I like to think I grew, and in some ways I did.
Many ways I did not. Not what I'd have liked to have grown, anyway.
I'm still disappointed? Frustrated? That I cannot form any lasting connection with anyone. Friends come and go, rarely keeping in touch. Maybe it's my fault. Maybe I'll know such bonds are always temporary, and I never want to make an effort.
Maybe I've just been hurt too many times.
Anyway.
I do have some hopes. I hope to establish my own business when I'm 45, or the right opportunity comes along. I hope to exercise more, so my coming years aren't so harrowing. I hope to expand myself creatively somehow.
Here's hoping each day is better.
I don't plan on it being a big deal, but looking back on when I turned 30, quite a lot happened. I like to think I grew, and in some ways I did.
Many ways I did not. Not what I'd have liked to have grown, anyway.
I'm still disappointed? Frustrated? That I cannot form any lasting connection with anyone. Friends come and go, rarely keeping in touch. Maybe it's my fault. Maybe I'll know such bonds are always temporary, and I never want to make an effort.
Maybe I've just been hurt too many times.
Anyway.
I do have some hopes. I hope to establish my own business when I'm 45, or the right opportunity comes along. I hope to exercise more, so my coming years aren't so harrowing. I hope to expand myself creatively somehow.
Here's hoping each day is better.
Hope your bday is awesome and you get to spend some time with the people who think you’re pretty dang cool.
You're still my friend and I am not going anywhere <3
Happy birthday ❤️