Rant/Depression
2 years ago
I have an insane disinterest in life right now and I'm having a rough time. Art has been so fucking hard to work on and any attempt at improving my life has been forfeit. I'm still stuck here waiting for medical to switch and am forced to pay out of pocket for meds and electrolysis in the meantime. Social Security Income is slow as fuck to be accepted and tired of watching my friends lose their fights against their inner demons.
I'm so fucking tired...
Every day is a victory when you get out of bed with depression, and I know it's true. But living with PTSD nightmares and having this shit play out in my head every other night and fearing sleep because I hate seeing that dead monster again...
I hate living like this...
I just want other facets of my life at least covered so I can focus on the rest, but I can't even get that. I qualify for SSI, but they won't grant it. They won't switch my insurance for reasons unknown.
Everything is always about bureaucracy, and it is taking so long that people die before things are fixed. I'm so sick of it. I just want to have a break.
I get a lot of help from people with bills, but I always feel bad about asking. I know I shouldn't, but I do. And in times where I need to ask and I get no help, I feel like everyone fave up on me, and it's justified. And I can't tell if that's true or my brain making shit up. It's exhausting.
I'm still in desperate need of funds for bills, if anyone is in a safe enough place to do so. I'm needing just under $600 to finish where I'm at right this moment. It would really massively help, mo matter the amount.
Thank yoy all for reading.
https://ko-fi.com/kampferwolf
https://paypal.me/KampferWolf
https://cash.app/$KampferWolf
I'm so fucking tired...
Every day is a victory when you get out of bed with depression, and I know it's true. But living with PTSD nightmares and having this shit play out in my head every other night and fearing sleep because I hate seeing that dead monster again...
I hate living like this...
I just want other facets of my life at least covered so I can focus on the rest, but I can't even get that. I qualify for SSI, but they won't grant it. They won't switch my insurance for reasons unknown.
Everything is always about bureaucracy, and it is taking so long that people die before things are fixed. I'm so sick of it. I just want to have a break.
I get a lot of help from people with bills, but I always feel bad about asking. I know I shouldn't, but I do. And in times where I need to ask and I get no help, I feel like everyone fave up on me, and it's justified. And I can't tell if that's true or my brain making shit up. It's exhausting.
I'm still in desperate need of funds for bills, if anyone is in a safe enough place to do so. I'm needing just under $600 to finish where I'm at right this moment. It would really massively help, mo matter the amount.
Thank yoy all for reading.
https://ko-fi.com/kampferwolf
https://paypal.me/KampferWolf
https://cash.app/$KampferWolf
Do what you have to do. I hope things start working in your favor soon.
You've always got my support. I'll contribute what I can when I can, I'm just stuck getting back on my own feet. :(