Wierd Friendless Kid...
16 years ago
I catch the paper boy, but things don't really change,
Ever feel isolated, even in a group? I do. I try my best to fit into conversations, but my politeness usually interferes with it, I usually get cut off before I get to speak. I want people to engage me in conversation, prod me with questions, even the simplest things of 'How are ya doing?' Think I am taking this a little more bitter, since all of friends I had disappear over the course of time, and when I did have a influx of money, I just blew it on stupid stuff, and rather blow it with someone, then it would been more worthwhile. So I have no one to hang out locally. I don't think anyone has ever asked me what my real name is. Sorry to vent on ya guys. I just wanted to get it off my chest.
Look forward to seeing you soon!
I suck at social interaction
You know you're always welcome to come and see me, and you can always find me online somewhere!
I'm sorry if you feel that way. I felt like that for a long time, even after I got involved in the fandom because it seemed like everyone had their own batch of buddies, even in local areas. But after awhile I realized. Sometimes you have to just push your way into conversations subtley. It's difficult, yes, but it works.
Also, I'll say that I dreaded this when I was going to my first fucon; I thought that I wouldn't meet anyone and just be a wallflower the whole time. But furcons seem to completely remove my inhibitions! Perhaps why I love them so much X3.
It's a difficult thing to force yourself to do, but I can say from experience, it's so much better if you just let yourself go X3. Trust me, I'm a neurotic kinda guy myself about this kind of stuff still, but I've found that it's just better to every now and again say something stupid and laugh it off them to try to make sure you never make any social mistakes =3